Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Menjadi pelajar kembali...


I'm in comfort zone...suddenly I got this letter......I'm so happy in this lazy mode....I don't know if I can shift back to working and studying mode.......Cepat sangat pun panggil masuk balik...ingat kan dapat sampai bulan mei....

aku belum sempat memiliki cinta....dulu kerana belajar ni la aku ngan dier jadi renggang.....aku terlalu sibuk dengan kerja dan belajar.......

mungkin kali ni berbeza....aku yang perlu menjadikannya berbeza......

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

cuti dah nak abih...

xsonoknye cuti dah nak abih ni...nak kene gunting rambut,bace buku balik,kemas wardrobe...bangun pagi2.....ishhhhhhhh

Friday, December 26, 2008

Just like a dream....

It was short and sweet....it was like a dream....wish that it could be longer but feels like somebody threw a wet towel to wake me up....it was cold and I cannot go back to sleep and have this wonderful dream continued...am i too slow that I cant capture her heart again like I had before?.....It was only a day and I cant plot the best scene.....Ohhh flirting was my game but it all gone now when I need it the most...

meowwwww....purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........


people that loves cat are loony...huhuhuh no i dnt thnk that but its what i heard in tv.....but mayb its true hahahahahaha so that must be y m such a loony.....I am a cat person...yup coz i cant touch dog but i do prefer cats than dogs even if i can touch dogs.......

Thursday, December 25, 2008

hidup xkeruan memikirkan semua yg aku lakukan....aku apply sume tempat tp mcm cincai2 je anto borang....i hav 2 pull myself togethr now..........help me God....

its 4:04 pm and I woke up 7 minutes before it....

The house looks like a ship wreck now....my mom is not around for a few days now....and she might come home tonight with a shock...hmmm got to clean all the mess but i just woke up and I'm hungry....got to go out...and then who knows what time I'll be back....the holiday just ruin me....its too long huhuhuhuhu...

deme ni le yang meganggu 'beauty sleep' aku.....oh ade sorg lagi tp xde dlm gambo yg ni........siap leh lepak McD sampei kul 5pagi sbb aku dah tercakap...sape yg nak balik dier 'looser' sampei ade yg menguap 2 3 kali tp xnak mengaku kalah...aku kompem laaa xnak kalah gak....seb baik le zarip n lan sugam mengaku kalah....kalo x mangkor lepak kat situ je.......

roh dah hampir nak pg ke alam mimpi tp ego nye pasal mane leh mengalah....

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

short and brief

I was in Pangkor with her....it was like a dream...sweet and short....I miss her...

Monday, December 22, 2008

mungkin aku bodoh

mungkin memang aku ni bodoh sebab berenti belajar....tapi skrg aku rase lega dengan xyah bersusah payah berulang alik dan memeningkan kepale nak memuaskan ati pensyarah2 yang makan puji dan ber'ego besar.....jadi, walopun keputusan ini bodoh tapi aku gembira.......

to : some1 I just forgot.........

Oh my god....dnt say dat babe...i dont wanna loose any friends of mine....even though u keep ur identity a secret but i feel that i must b close to u.....just reveal yourself please....all i know is that i love all my friends....

there are those that done me wrong before but i still wanna be friends with them too....in my world there is a word call ex-girlfriends but there is no Ex-friend....there are many people that i haven't contacted for so long but they don't perish in my heart....a friend is always a friend....so please forgive me if i done any wrong to you but don't neglect me from ur list of friends....

Maybe i done terrible things that made u hide urself...if i do then its a big shame for me.....dnt torment me like this....I longed to know who u really are....


Sunday, December 21, 2008

1 island down, 1000 more to go...

I just came back from P.Pangkor and I feel heaven....

At last I got to see her after 2 years of tormented years...I can't say that everything works as i planned but its not bad laaaa....I cant make my moves as her cousin was with her....I cant just neglected my attention to her or she would feel like 'ubat nyamuk'...so in being curteous I had to make both of them happy.....only god knows how i lone to be wit her alone and tell her how my heart miss her so much...her laughter,her smiles,her voice everything the same....she looked as wonderful as she always been.....

Wish that I had more time with her but the cousin got to work tomorrow....how i wished the cousin cant made it to our shang ri la.. she's downgraded it a little...

i hope 'pepatung likes my gift....I gave her a jewelry box with encarving of 2 dragonflies that I bought in Vietnam....she seems happy enough that day...and from her eyes I can see how she had been longing to see me all this time too....I saw how suprised she was when we met last friday...I change a lot....physically......

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

lamenye x berblog....

oh memg tajuk tepahhappe je kat atas ni...sbb mcm xde idea nak tulis ape...dah lame gile x post entry...bukan xde yg berlaku dalam hidup tp cume xde idea nak tulis...lgpun dah 2 minggu demam ni....nak gi klinik atau hospital maleh lak rasenye...bukan takut tp xsuke menunggu...msti kene tunggu berejam jam...ramai betooi le org sakit skg ni....

hmmmm ni pun dah blank xtau nak tulih ape tp rase mcm nak tulih gakkk,....pakse2 memg xkan datg idea..........

oleh itu baik aku berundur seketika.....walopun aku dah lame xtulih pape tp aku masih aktif membace blog org len...cume aku xtinggalkan komen je.......

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Tunnel of survivor....

Ohhh to continue......This is my sister...she's the 1 that drag me along to the trip....hoho what a mystery to put the balloon at the head....i know she wouldn't like me to put her picture here....this picture was taken in the tunnel...it was dark but the flash of the camera was so powerful that it filled the the tunnel....

I was reluctant to go to this trip at 1st.....I tought of going to sempoerna....I like beaches and sea...when I was still in college, I and pepatung planned to go to all the islands and beaches in Malaysia....but until now we haven't been to any beaches together yet....that's why I am so excited about the Pangkor plan....I hope nothing go wrong........I can't wait for raya haji....we planned to go the trip after it..........



Friday, November 28, 2008

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!

In the tunnel....its not this wide but this is like the room in the tunnel...scary dark tunnel....

H
ello everybody!!! I miss u so much..... I just came back from a trip at Vietnam around Ho Chi Minh City....I know to some of you this is not a big deal...I dont come from a wealthy family so a trip like this mean so much to me....I been there since last Friday till last Monday...huhuhuhu I'm still excited about it......

When I was in school I didn't get the chance to follow any school trip....near or far...not to say that we lived in poverty it was just that at that time they looked like a waste of money...what important were food on the table, roof on our heads and clothes on our body....I always wanted to follw all those trips I missed back in school days but I didn't asked my mom because I knew that it would be out of budget.....

I won't put any other pictures to respect the other that were along on that trip....I dont think they would like to be expose here.....Hmmm I'm out of words..............think I'll continue later....my brother is home now...and he can't wait to play computer games....I'll back off...it is not that he's here all the time......bye for now.....

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Malassssssssssssssnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

Uhhh maleh lak nak sambung....anyway, I saw Hornbills on the island...
rase macm nak kidnap sekor!!!
~rasenye ni ibu ngan anak sebab setiap kali yang depan tu jumpe makanan mesti dier bagi kat yng belakang tu...hmmmmm burung pun tahu kasih sayang...malunye manusia ade yang sanggup buang anak...

@pun sebenonye pasangan kekasih kut huhuhuhu........

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Leave me alone for awhile...

I have been running away from people around me for these few days. I wanted to be left alone for sometime...last Sunday I went for a course at pangkor...It was the perfect gateway to loneliness... I made new friends on the Island...I have always be friendly...I ran from everybody and I met new people... They asked me to go for island hopping but I don't wan to...uhhh an old man lend me his motorcycle when i said i want to look around the island...hmmm peole have been so nice to me since Sunday when my depression was on maximum mode huhuhu....

Sunday :

I went to the workshop to change engine oil and everything that need to be change. I left my motorcycle there and went to the mamak's restaurant. I ate nasi beriyani. didn't finish the food and the teh o ais. Then i went to the counter to pay for the food. i was shock...RM13.90...I never knew that nasi beriyani with ayam pedas and tea could be this expensive.. I paid the food and walk out the premise..a few steps away then i heard the cashier called me...he made mistake...Oo and he's so sincere to call me back and give me back my money...so there is sincere people in this town

I walked to the workshop to pick up my bike....
The mechanic stood there with his wife he said he's waiting for me...the workshop closed..it only open until 1 on Sundays....huhuh he smiled and said that he was about to look for me...he didn't show any angry reaction or anything....he was so nice....he said it like it was his fault when it is mine heeheheh...there is still patient people in this town...
I have to go now....I'll continue this later.....

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Oh. Egg is nice with everything. Cheap but satisfying.


I was messaging Pepatung and suddenly we talked about eggs. That reminded me of my little brother.

I and my younger brother were crazy about egg. We use to eat it everyday. We used to experiment cooking it. We put salt, we put this and that and so many kind of ways to cook it. Everyday there must be eggs. our mother nagged every day because no matter what she cooked we still wanted the eggs.

She was fed up that she stopped buying eggs...but that didn't stopped us..we saved our school money and bought them ourselves.. she had to give up...huhu.

This is the only thing we got in common...we both love egg...other than that its zero...we didn't fight, quarrel, chatting, hang out or anything at all...if he's home he will stay put in front of the laptop and download anime or movie...these are the only things that he'll do...

I don't know if he has friends or girlfriends. ask him 1 question and he answer it once, ask him 10 questions he answered it 10 time....ask him more, he'll be quiet.....I don't know him anymore...its like he has no lives...he never asked anything...not only with me but everybody...he even never asked for money when he needs it....I just put it in his account.

he was not always like that...we used to do things together when we were younger......its after high school...he stayed in hostel and he started to be so far away from us...I missed my brother.... We used to fight until the point that he took a knife and chased me....but that was ok, after that we will be able to play together again but now....I can say anything to him or do anything that can make him mad but No he will not play that game...he will just keep quiet....

Our family has always have trouble expressing our feelings...my elderly brothers and sisters still have problems showing love to my parents but the good thing is that they try..My father is a strict person..He raised his children like soldiers except for me....Maybe its because I was sick when I was a child that sometime its not fair for the others and they felt a little jealousy....

My mother loves all her children, I never doubted that but she rarely calls them and they rarely called her too, except when they wanted to tell that they bank in money...I was the one that used to call them and said that mother asking about them...I always said that "mak dah rindu kat kamu, bile nak balik..."or "mak nak cakap ngan kamu, dier rindu..."....It took a long time for them to learn how to call home...usually if I'm the one answering the phone I will said to my mother " Abg *** nak cakap ngan mak, rindu le tu.." and my mother will smile and answer the phone....

Depress no more...I hope so..


I been feeling depress for a number of days that I forgot what was I been depress about. These few days made me opens my eyes. I know that the road I'm on was not so bad...I been lucky for a long time...I should be thankful to god. The road I'm on was not so bad...yup there were rough time but there are people who had harder time and still live happily...I want to be that kind of person...I want to face anything comes my way with head held high and the confident of a lion...

People have been nice towards me these few days...Since last Sunday. I have not being among friends for a week. I felt I want to be alone and I avoid 'lepak-lepak' with anyone...I stayed home reading blogs and books...People start asking why and I told them nothing...I have not tell anyone about my problems cause I know they'll try to fix it and it will only get worse...

I received a letter for a course at Pulau Pangkor. I was very reluctant to go as I'm in a foul mood. But i still went there and now I'm at a mamak's writing this entry...just came back from Pangkor Island.

I do feel relief now. I been thinking when I was on the island and I'm stronger now... come what may, I'll face it like a true man...

I hope Pepatung is ok now...she was so sad that she didn't get the transfer letter...congratulation to Pie and Nawar as they'll be transferring to their hometown next year......Oh oh congratulation to Sun for her new baby boy.................


Thursday, November 6, 2008

I am the king of sorrow....

I am depress....feel like shifting my life to a new beginning....change lifestyle,change workplace,changes of attitudes and everything that could be change. I do not want to be polite anymore....people say I am too polite and naive that everybody oppress me..I do not want to be helpful too..people always take granted of me...I do not want to care about anybody before I care about me...I really need a boost of confident....I should 'masuk bakul angkat sendiri' sometime...being modest just made me small......

Award.....

Thank you nurain for giving me this award...eventhough I know I didn't reallly qualified but u made my day....I was depressed today....when i came home from work and stumble this award, i was a bit happy...thank you so much for the award.... uhh i know i have to tag some people...hmm ok....these are five blogs i want to tag....

1) Poyotito - He always know what to write...and so 'slamber'....that's what makes his blog so cool...he's very funny too...
2) Pjoe - He knows how to convey his words....
3) Pie - Uhhh she always updated her blog with wonderful songs...
4) Sue Anna Joe - She is an amazing artist...great photographer...and lively too...
5) Nurain - yup...she's the 1 that tagged me.....is it okay to give back the award to her?.....no harm i think....thank you for all ur attention and advice...u r always true to urself....dats what i like about you.....

*** Some people that i tag did not even know me but i like reading their blog....so if they didn't post the tag i wont feel annoying or anything...they owe me nothing...I just hope they keep writing.......Sincere from me.....

Rules:
Give to the people whom you feel BEST GILA-GILA
Only 5 people
Link to that person who had received the award
Sesiapa dpt award ni diwajibkan buat posting kat blog dier sbb dier dpt award,
Inform the people yg dpt award ni kat blog dier ok!!
Dan orang yang layak mendapatkan nye

Sunday, November 2, 2008

"lenkali kalo aku bayo kamu bg balance duit xcukup sifat, aku campak kat muka kamu..."

Tadi aku leh terbiadab lak ngan cashier kedai makan......maaf laaa cik adik oi....kenape laaa kamu leh tetibe datang ke meja kami dan terus cakap dengan kuat "Rm16.70!!!"....nape le xcakap lek lok......cakap "minta maaf, bleh bayar sekarang" ke atau yang sopan sket....

Aku tahu le kamu nak tutup kedai dah tapi kan ramai lagi orang...laen le kalo dah kemas pastu kami xreti2 nak balik ke laen le cite.....pastu bile member aku bayar ade duit 5 ringgit yang ade koyak sket kat ujung nape kamu cakap "duit koyak tak nak!!!" dengan nada kurang ajar lak tu.....kami ni bukan peminta sedekah datang kedai minta simpati bagi makanan free ke ape....kalo dengan peminta sedekah pun xbaik kurang ajar camtu....udah le kami dari zaman kamu blum kereje kat situ dah selalu lepak situ.....

Tapi aku pun kene minta maaf la jugak...tak penah la pulak aku cakap kurang ajar camtu...aku tau aku xpatut cakap "lenkali kalo aku bayo kamu bg balance duit xcukup sifat, aku campak kat muka kamu..."....uhhhhh rase bersalah lak aku....walopun memang kamu pun kenkadang penah gak bg duit xcukup sifat kat aku...baru semalam je kamu bagi...tapi kan aku xcakap ape2 pun sbb aku nampak boss kamu ade kat sebelah....dier lak kawan aku dari sekolah...aku xnak kamu kene marah je....

Aku yang emotional kot......kesian kamu...muka dah mencuka...lenkali belajar le bersopan sket, jangan nak meninggi suara kat orang xtentu pasal....

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Ohhhh 1st time kene tag.......

Ohhh 1st time aku ditag....Nurain telah menge'tag' aku....ok aku akan cube buat..hmmm tp aku xpaham camane nak wat ni.....kate 'every question is referring to 1 person' maknenye setiap soalan untuk orang yang bebeza ke?...oleh sebab aku xpaham sangat aku wat je camane yg aku paham......

Every question is referring to 1 person

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
- hmmm tergantung...xtau siapa aku dihatinya...(pepatung)
2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
- happy
- positive thinker
- funny
- good listener
- punctual
(dalia)
3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
- sent me home from penang to my home before went to kedah on the last day of college...I got so many things that it filled the whole car...(ejat)

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
- even on my saddest day i'll be happy when i see u...(Irdawati)

5. If he/she become your lover, you will…
- both of us will be late for every function.(Sun)

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will…
- Sue him..... then he'll be miserable and I'll be rich wahahahahahahah...... (Im)

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on…
- emotion control...she is moody.... (pie)

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is…
- I ate his food...wahahahaha (Kutai)

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
- Steal his Gaara shirt...(Zarip)

10. The overall impression of him/her is…
- hypocrite (Faizal)

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
- Too lazy.....ignore opportunities to upgrade myself.... (everybody)

12. The character of you for yourself is?
- a chameleon....changes according to the situation...

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
- easily satisfied.....

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
- A good husband and father.....

15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
-Thank you.....my world is empty without you...

16. Ten people to tag:
-ni susah ni....blog xramei pembace camane nak tag org...hmmm aku pakei tulih je le yek....kalo xnak buat pun xpe....xkene sumpah ape2 pun.....
1. fishball-is-me
2. Kutai - Sangapkah hidup?
3. Dani -penampar terbang
4. Pjoe
5. Miss weed
6. anonymous
7. anonymous
8. anonymous
9. anonymous
10. Sesiapa sahaja ingin dirinya di'tag'....hehehehe

17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?

- Cha Chia....

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
- Male....

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
-Oh no it wouldn't.......it means dat no.7 is having multiple relationship......

20. How about no. 5 and 8?
- hmmmm no.5 is married so it would not be a good thing but if no ten is an imagination then it'll be ok....mayB....

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
- hmmm I don't know...mayB she's studying a catalouge now.....for holloween....

22. Is no. 4 single?
- Uuhhh m not quite close with him but mayB he is.......

23. Say something about no. 6
- Anonymous?...Uhhhh i donno anything but everybody hate anonymous....luckily i have no visits from anonymous or mayB that just mean that no one really care what I wrote....Uhhh but I care heheh....

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Life is not a happy ending movie : Part 2

From the previous entry I wrote the messages that we text each other on the Saturday...we were planning to meet on Sunday..she slept at Cititel Hotel near pudu....I slept at Shah Alam....I was thrill to meet her...I haven't meet her for almost two years...only god knows how I miss her.

I have to attend a wedding at Semenyih 1st......she woke me up in the morning....

Pepatung : " Up. Up. Bestmen cnt b lte."

It was 9.17 in the morning....I woke up and got ready but have to wait for the others to get ready..I msg her text her bck at 11.37 am....

Darkheart : "Bru nk pg dear....tgu 7 jejaka terhngt bsiap pun macm pompuan jgk...hihi"

Pepatung : " jejaka terhangit u mean. Who sys gals r pcky, guys 2.

and I went to the wedding.....we wait for the 'bersanding'...took a lot of pics and reuniting with friends....

I was worried....its 3 already and I was still here...I miss her i want to see her now....but I cant go anywhere...who can send me to K.L.....at 3.16 pm I texted her...

Darkheart : " stil in tme square?."

Pepatung : "Gues u cnt make it huh? stl ere. easy to get d bus station from ere. M eatin McD."

Darkheart : "Tme Square?..m findin way..."

Pepatung : "Alne or along wit ur konco2? Tmes square ya."

Darkheart : " wit konco2 bt m tryin 2 loose them..we'r startin 2 leave now.."

Pepatung : " Wel its n hour b4 m dprtre. Bttr not losin ur wy.

I was running out of time....I asked my friend to send me to Pepatung's hand.....They agreed..I was relieved but still my heart thumping up n down....

We planned to meet so many times b4 and never have the pleasure to acomplish it...there were always somethings that stopped us from doing so....I really hope that this time its different... i want to see her even if its only for a minute...

Semenyih to times square took a long time.......its 4.30 and we were still not there.....and we're not from around here so the road can really play tricks on us.....

Darkheart : "In kl yet stil nt arrive..u stll there..?..feels like in the movie....the man rush 2 c d girl b4 her departure..."

Pepatung :"Ere stil bt disis nt a mvie wit a hppy endin i gues. M bus is at 5 n d latest i've 2 get out of ere is 4.40."

.........yupppppp m late......I called her and told her to go to the bus station....she's going back to Pahang....I dont want her to loose her bus.....I told her that i'll be headin to the bus station...she said that it is at Titiwangsa..... I dont know this area and so was the driver....but we're finding way...I cant wait 2 see her...I want to see that smile on her face...

Pepatung :"Dnt come. d driver's honkin mad. C u at Pangkor anas.."

Darkheart : "Still not movin?....I'll cme...if i cud c u frm outside the bus is gud enuff..."

Pepatung : "Turns out m gna hve 2 wait 4 thse who're late. hve fun wit d rest of ur weeknd."

We lost our way but still keen o go there....she texted me again....

Pepatung :" M off. C ya. m sad... we rlly need 2 meet dis h'day. Rlly!"

Darkheart :" M rally sad..almost there...rlly wanna meet u..feel like centuries ago we last met..yup.d holiday must happen.

Pepatung : " of cuz. Almst two yrs? Cnt remember hw mch taller u r thn me. Dats hw we've nt wlkd 2gtr."

This is my saddest weekend this year.....I really miss her....no one else can replace her in my heart.........

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Life is not a happy ending movie..part 1


Last Sat I went to Semenyih to see a friend 'akad nikah'...its a long trip from home but I was happy for that Trip as I can kill two birds with one stone....yup...but that was what I thought but not what happened....Pepatung was in KL...and I thought that I would have the opportunity to see her...It have been almost two years since I last met her...I miss pepatung so much....I don't know why she came to KL....she must have been missing me too.....

We messaged each other while I was in the car to Semenyih...

Pepatung "Klcc tgv. Stll ere. I'l go Times Square 2moro. Myb u cud go thre aftr d wdng. I'l leave arnd 4.30 4 m bus left at 5."

Darkheart "Ok.I'l do my bestest..."

Pepatung "Do so if u wnt 2. Bt try ur bst 1st."

Darkheart "of coz i will...d wedding is like numb 2 now.."

Pepatung "Bt if its 2 mch trble...we stil hve pngkor 2 look 4ward 2.So its fne."

Darkheart "Yup..its just dat b4 dis we made so many plans n it didnt work out..."

Pepatung "Okie. Cme then. Cme by hook or b crook so i wnt b lnely dis whle trip."

darkheart "Yes..i'l crawl there if i hav too.."

Pepatung "Dts d spirit. M headin bck. Klcc's no fun 4 wndw shppn 4 al d premises r hi class."


the plan seemed ok but thats not the story.....

To Miss Green.

Aku xtau ape lagi aku nak cakap kat kamu....lebih kurang 9 tahun dahulu semasa pertama kali aku berjumpa dengan kamu juga memang aku tidak menaruh perasaan cinta terhadap kamu...kamu kata aku layan kamu dengan baik...tapi itu memang aku..aku melayan baik sesape sahaja...bukan kamu seorang...dan seingat aku, aku xpernah melafazkan kata cinta pada kamu..

Cinta memang aneh....hampir 9 tahun kamu masih setia dengan hatimu...padahal jika dikira-kira baru sekali kamu bertemu dengan aku 9 tahun dahulu...bagaimana kamu boleh berkata kamu mencintai aku bila kamu sendiri tidak betul2 mengenali aku...hanya pada tahun ini sahaja baru kamu berani bertemu aku bermula pada bulan ramadhan yang lalu..aku berasa serba salah kerana mu....hati ku sudah menjadi milik Pepatung....dalam masa 9 tahun kamu menunggu ku...aku sudah 3 kali jatuh cinta dengan wanita yang berbeza dan 2 darinya sudah pun berkahwin malah memiliki anak..dan mereka masih menghubungi aku malah suami mereka juga sudah menjadi kawan-kawan aku jugak....xpernah aku berdendam dengan sesiapa.....kerana aku paham bahawa cinta tidak semestinya bermaksud memiliki...

Kamu banyak kali berkata bahawa aku tidak pernah memberi peluang padamu....apakah maksud mu itu?...adakah kamu ingin aku berpura-pura mencintaimu?...adakah itu?...kerana aku tidak tahu berpura-pura sebegitu.....mungkin salah aku....patutnya dari 9 tahun dahulu aku patut xmengendahkan kamu langsung...aku xpatut menjawab pangilan2 telefon mu...aku xpatut membalas sms2 mu, aku xpatut menerima hadiah2 mu...mungkin patutnya setiap kali kamu memberi surat atau hadiah aku patut berlari padamu dan mencampakkan sahaja pada muka mu...mungkin jika aku lakukan itu dari dahulu kamu xkan menunggu aku sebegini lamanya....hanya perjumpaan sekali 9 tahundahulu sudah memerangkap hatimu padaku...

Pernah aku katakan dahulu semasa kamu meminta jawapan dariku sama ada aku boleh menerima mu atau tidak bahawa kita patut berkawan je dahulu....tapi kamu tidak...kamu xhendak berkawan sahaja....kamu kata kamu setuju untuk berkawan tapi kamu tidak bertindak seperti seorang kawan.

Maafkan aku terhadap segala yang terjadi....aku tidak berniat melukakanmu tapi aku harus lakukannya supaya kamu tidak terus menerus menungguku......




Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Kejam!!!

Aku merasa spt aku amat kejam dan tidak bertimbang rasa....padahal aku cuba untuk menjaga hati semua orang...adakah kerana terlalu menjaga hati membuatkan aku akhirnya hanya menyusahkan semua orang?...

Tidak pernah terniat dihati aku untuk menyakiti sesiapa..aku tidak pernah diajar begitu....dan sesungguhnya bukanlah hanya seorang wanita yang pernah aku sakiti tanpa sengaja...bila aku mencintai seseorang wanita itu aku akan mencintainya sepenuh jiwa dan jika wanita itu tidak aku cintai takkan pernah aku melayannya dengan buruk.....

Aku bukanlah kasanova dan aku tidak mempunyai ciri-ciri playboy...aku tidak pernah mempermainkan cinta kerana cinta bagi aku adalah perkara yang suci.....adakah aku seorang yang amat teruk.....itu yang aku rasa sekarang.....aku menunggu seorang wanita yang belum pasti mencintai aku dan aku juga ditunggu oleh seorang wanita yang tidak aku cintai...aku tidak benci 'dia'....perkataan itu sama sekali tidak ada di dalam hati aku....bagaimana dengan 'dia'?...adakah dia membenci aku sekarang........

Aku seperti dipanah petir bila membaca komen yang ditinggalkan......

Aku rasa bersalah seperti telah membunuh cinta....

*komen yang ditinggalkan dalam entri "Nape aku masih solo?.."

"darkheart...

kamu mmg mmbuat ksilapan besar dgn mmbuat ak tertggu2 dn tertnya2 tnpa mmberi pnjelasan yg luhur lg jujur dri lubuk hati kamu..

dalam pnantian ak,,,kamu layan ak bagai lbih dri sorg kawan...dalam keadaan tertanya2,,,kamu ambil berat tntang ak bagai ak teman istimewa kamu,,,,

salah kah ak sebab terperasan yg kamu juga punyai rasa sperti aku?ak hanya seorg perempuan..ht perempuan sgt halus...mudah tersentuh bila dilayan sebegitu...tak perlu kamu layan ak sedemikian rupa selama ni...kamu hanya mmbuatkan ak trus merasakan ada cinta dlam ht kamu utk ak!!

ak tak kisah andai dri mula "jejak kasih",, kita kamu mnyatakn hti kamu telah dihuni oleh "cinta" hati yg kamu tunggu slama ni..ak tak kan sedih apatah lg merayu tuk kamu sukan kan ak jika ak tahu kebenarannya...ak ada harga diri..ak tak kan menadah muka tak bertempat...mgkin layanan kamu mmbuatkn ak menrndahkan ego ak sbg sorg permpuan dgn meluahkan segala yg ak rasa..simpan..pndam..tanpa tinggal walau sedikit pun sisa dlm hati ini...

mgkin btul...kamu sorg lelaki yg terlalu baik shinggga tidak tahu utk mengatakan tidak tapi sedarkah kamu..secara perlahan2 kamu akhirnya mlukakan ak juga dgn msg kamu bila ak mntak jawapan yg ak tgu dri kamu selama ni..

honestly..msg kamu tu mmbuatkan ak jatuh terdiam terkelu lidah ak..kamu btul2 mmbuat ak rasa spt ak tidak punya harga diri slama ni..mgkin kamu tak sedar stu ketika dlu ada ayat yg kmu luahkan yg mmbuatkan ak jd yakin n kuat utk terus mnunggu kamu..mmg itu crita lama tp spt yg ak katakan td ht permpuan sgt2 halus..ak tersentuh dn trus myakinkan dri dgn mnunggu kamu...

kini...tiap masa ak bca msg kamu yg berhantu tuh..ak bangun semula dgn mmbaca msg tu..ak mnilai diri ak dgn stiap pekataan dlm msg tu..alhmdllah..ak sedar diri dgn msg tu..ak kuat smula...

berminggu ak mnyepi..kini ak gagah juga mmbaca blog kamu..dah lama ak tak singgah kt sini...byak bnda yg ak tak tahu akhirnya ak tahu juga..

thanks for everything...

ak doakan yg terbaik buat kamu..
moga org yg kamu tunggu akan mmbalas cinta kamu..menghargai penantian kamu selama ini...

smoga dia dpt mnyayangi kamu lebih dari ak mnyintai kamu...

insan yg tak prnah kamu bri peluang..............
ms green"

Aku tidak tahu apa yang perlu aku buat untuk memperbaiki semuanya......aku perlukan pertolongan..........

**Miss Green, sudah pasti aku ambil berat tentang kamu....itu tidak bermakna cinta.....takkan ketika kamu bertarung dengan nyawa aku tidak peduli tentang kamu?...sudah pasti aku pun risau pasal kamu...kerana aku menganggap kamu sahabat......



October 26, 2008 9:37 PM

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Saturday, October 25, 2008

Jangan bace....entri mengarut je nih...buang mase kamu nanti!!!

Beberapa minggu lalu aku membuat keputusan untuk tangguh sem...aku xlalu dah nak berulang-alik sejauh 2jam perjalanan untuk menuntut ilmu....orang kate carilah ilmu walau sampai ke negeri china tp aku dalam negeri sendiri pun dah xlarat....aku ingat aku sorang je mempunyai masalah begini tapi bile membace entry yang ditulis oleh Sue Anna Joe aku rasa lega...maaf aku tau aku xpatut rasa begitu..aku rasa lega kerana mengetahui bahawa masalah ini sebenarnye dihadapi oleh orang lain jugak....aku kagumi dia sebab mempunyai perancangan yang rapi untuk menghadapi hari-hari mendatang...tidak seperti aku....dulu prinsip aku adalah 'Failling to plan is planning to fail" tapi aku macam lupakan semua prinsip aku...

aku telah tulis surat penangguhan semester...aku tidak kuat..aku takut jika suatu hari nanti aku akan menyesal...tetapi aku terlambat hantar dan mungkin tidak diterima....koordinator tepon aku dah memberitahu aku untuk ambik mc pada tarikh peperiksaan....koordinator tahu potensi aku...dia pnah mengajar aku....

masalah yang aku hadapi adalah masa...sebenanya dah banyak kali aku menulis pasal masa dan keletihan ku pada awal-awal kewujudan blog ini malah aku mempunyai blog rahsia dimana segala caci maki dan luahan rasa aku catatkan...aku xsanggup berkongsi blog itu...itu tempat aku mengeluarkan "aku" yang 1 lagi....

aku mungkin dibuang dan aku sanggup...kerana beberapa minggu tanpa perlu risau tentang assgmnt dan kelas membuatkan aku bahagia...aku bahagia....sudah hampir 2 tahun aku terperap sahaja tanpa kemana-mana kerana terpaksa ke kelas...sekarang aku bebas...malah esok aku hendak berjumpa cinta aku....dah 2 tahun kami xjumpa...semuanya gara2 study aku yang terlalu pack....

aku takut...aku takut pandangan orang....selame ni orang tgk aku ni "kuat".....semua benda aku leh buat...sebenarnya di dalam aku lemah....sangat lemah... jangan jadikan aku role-model jangan ikut aku....jangan jadi aku...........


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sbgai terapi aku meng'bankrup'kan diri aku degn mbeli benda yang aku xperlu pun....skrg aku dah khatam bace manual aku nak prektis gune huhuhuhuhu...


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Nape aku masih solo?....

SMS yang aku terime pade 17 feb 2007...5:04pm.......

"flyin solo.Lotsa othr thngs on mind. bsides there's not much choice thre. An east coester is abig no 4 me. So i'l wait. he'l come. Eventualy. Hey.. u cud hook up anyone at uni while ur studyin. nvrmind if ur still single by d time ur 26 n so m i, we cud hook 4 ol time sake ha ha"

msg yang diterima dari ex-girl setahun selepas break up....dier jawab msg yang aku tanye...r u wit any1 now?...

dan aku masih tunggu dier......tahun depan dah 26.....aku masih solo dan dier masih solo.....selepas break up memg dua-dua xpenah kapel sesape...

dia tinggalkan aku sbb cemburu kot....sebelum kenai dier memg laaaaaa aku ramai gak rrrr kawan pompuan.....dier pun kenai aku 3tahun sebelum kapel tuh...dier tau perangai aku sebab dier kawan aku sebelum kapel.......bile ngan dier aku xde sesape pun...dier aje.....xkan aku nak halau bile aku dating ade pompuan yang aku kenai dan dier kenai datang lepak skali...bukan salah aku bile diorang terlebih mesra ngan aku...diorang xtau sbb kamu jugak xnak aku bgtau kite dah kapel mase tuh...diorang ingat kite kawan je......

aku tunggu kamu...kamu tunggu aku ke?........kalau kamu dah ade yang punye aku leh go on ngan hidup aku...tp kamu pun solo jer.....

aku sayang kamu.....

aku sakit hati.......

aku sakit ati bile privacy diganggu....bukan privacy maksud aku bile org tanye "bile nak kahwin"...atau "nape x kahwin lagi....itu aku xkesah sangat....sume tu besa rrr..mungkin amek berat.yang aku marah bile orang selongkar benda personal aku tanpa kebenaran...macam semalam,aku tertinggal pendrive kat pejabat..sebelum balik aku amek balik...aku xde syak ape2 atau prsangka ape2...pagi ni tetibe kerani aku tanye "kenape kamu mintak tangguh belajar?"...aishhhh mane dier tau...pastu siap ngaku..."akak bukak pendrive kamu semalam,akak ade bace surat yang kamu tulis..."....

GAMPANNNNNNGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!

penyebokkkk nye...sebok nak bukak pendrive aku tu pasay paaa..... aku ni bukan anak kamu...mak aku pun xkan pernah wat camni...kat rumah aku sume orang hormat privacy masing2..kecuali anak2 sedare aku yang kecik lagi laaa...itu leh la dimaafkan.....kecik lagi...

dah le aku selalu tolong kamu...kuang ajo betoi laaaa..... selamat laaa aku ni bukan org yang suke tgk porno atau nyimpan porno dalam pendrive...kalo x lagi malu aku...tah2 dier ingat ade porno kot dlm pendrive tu....tu yg merenyam nak bukak.... benci betoi aku ngan org camni...naseb baek kamu tua kalo x aku maki dahhh...

dulu mase aku masih lagi belajar penah gak macm ni...mase tu lecturer aku datang nak observe aku....aku pergi bilik air mase tuh...selambe dier datang tempat aku bukak beg aku....HOIIII....kamu sape nak geledah rete bende aku....polis pun kene ade waran ni kan stakat kamu...tp mase tuh bertingkat aku maki dier...padan muke.....tau takut ngan aku...lecturer ni plak lecturer yang anti aku...dari praktikal dulu pun pernah cari pasay ngan aku....tapi mase tuh aku sabar je......

Maaf le aku meluahkan perasaan xpueh ati aku kat cni...pade setengah orang bende ni kecik je...tapi pada aku besarrrr.....

Monday, October 20, 2008

WTF!!!!!!!


Tolong ampunkan aku jika aku buat kamu semua termuntoh, xlalu makan sebulan atau mengalami masalah tido selepas menatap gamba ini....tetapi buat mereka yang ingin menguruskan badan xperlu berterima kasih kepada aku apabila mengalami penyusutan berat badan selepas 3hari melihat gamba ini...jangan salahkan aku...aku terbace blog Pjoe dan khuatir aku terkene sumpahan bisul...Pjoe membuat cabaran ntuk meletak gamba WTF(what the Fuck!!) ke blog.....aku blum pernah kene bisul seumo idup aku dan xpnh ingin untuk kene...ni gambar lame dan skg bulu ketiak ku dah separas lutut....

Aku tipu jelaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! jangan le percaye!!!....bulu ketiak aku ditrim dari mase ke semase sekarang ni...xpercaye?...kamu boleh datang berjumpe aku dan menjilatnye sendiri....ellehhhhh jangan nak tipu laaaa kenkadang memg semua org alpa untuk menjaga bawah ketiak sendiri...lagi2 gamba ni diambil setelah 2 bulan ditinggalkan oleh Nuyun....hmmm kalo dier tgk gamba ni kompem memg dier xnak kat aku balik....nanti aku pun jadi sunyi....dan mungkin mase tu aku leh masuk world book of record dengan kepanjangan bulu ketiak yang melampo.....

Ohhhh sesape yang berminat nak tau care meluruskan bulu ketiak leh hubungi aku nanti yek.....

*** disebabkan ade beberapa org mencadangkan untuk compile gambar WTF malah ade yang nak buh kat friendster jadi aku terpaksa membuang mata aku.....uhhhh xnak aku populariti camtuh....aku sahut cabaran pun maen2 je......- mungkin ade yang cakap "pasan laaa kau...sape nak amek gamba kau..!!" tapi mungkin sifat paranoia aku yang membuat kan aku begini...lantak aku laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....!!!!!!!!!!!!....................................

Saturday, October 18, 2008

ape nye tutt la....

semalam aku post entry cakap aku dah addicted ngan cite "kekasihku seru"...pastu aku kuor lepak ngan memember dekat pekan...aku cite lak kat deme bertape syiokkk nye cite ni...pastu mule le deme cite pasei alam2 ghaib ni....ade sorang dalam member kami ni memg jenis cari2 bende2 ni....mcm seeker le kirenye...kirenye mcm sape yng nak tgk bende2 ni memg leh dier tunjukkan le....kene cari kawasan2 tertentu pastu nanti dier leh panggil bende2 ghaib ni yang ade kat situ...tp jgn harap laaa aku nak tgk...aku bukan nye berani sgt...mau pengsan aku kot kalo bende tu wujudkan diri depan mata.....

sembang2 sampei kui 2.30....kedai tu nak tutup dah...kami cari port len lak....nak lepak gak lagi...kami gi le restorant 24jam ni....memule sembang pasey len tp leh terbukak lak pasey bende2 tu jgak...sembang nye sembang tetibe member yng seeker tu tetibe kate nak balik...td memule dier yang siap ajak tuko port lepak...kami wat xtau je le...tp aku memg rase mcm ade xkene je...meremang je bulu tangan aku....aku wat2 xtau je le...pastu xbrape lame aku dapat msg.... {bgtau bdk2,blik kang, basuh kaki ngan tangan sblum masuk umah k..}......

AIMOKKKKKKK.....aku kecut gile......wahahahaha ntuk blagak cool aku cakap baik kite lepok je dulu....sembang pasey len...bukan ape kalo balik skg msti dlm pale masing2 pikir bende tu.....pastu camne nak tenteram balik...dah le umah aku plg jauh......mule le sembang pasey kete le ape le.......sampei kul 4pg baru balik....dalmk otok aku masih terpikir gak bende2 tu tp xmcm td...kirenye aku lebih tenang le.....sblm masuk umah aku basuh kaki ngan tangan aku...aku wat2 cool je..mane tau kot bende tu ade dekat situ kalo tgk aku gelabah semacm lg dier suke nyakat.... nape le kunci aku susah sabgt nak bukak....aku tarik napas dalam2 n slow2 bukak pagar n pintu....aku kunci balik pun dengan slow motion ibarat sloth...

masuk bilik aku terus nampak pc...masih lg on...aku klik bnyak2 cite tu sblm kuor td...konon balik lepak nak tgk....hmmm aku tutup suis trus.....lantok le..........

Friday, October 17, 2008

junkie..

aku dah addicted ngan cite "kekasihku seru"...aku tgk kat youtube je....dulu aku ingat cite ni xbest....mcm cite anak pontianak tu...tetibe lak pontianak bajet superhero xpun cite saka tuh....jd aku xlayan le cite nih...semalam hujan,mcm malam ni jugak....jd aku layan je le......skali aku naik syok le.....trus aku cari kat tenet....hmmm sape kate drama hantu xbest...aku rase yang ni akan ubah pandangan anda...aku rase je le..ni pandangan aku je...

p/s kepada peminat cite 'anak pontianak' ngan 'saka', sowi le aku bukan kutuk tp memg aku rase cite tu xbest je.....

Thursday, October 16, 2008

My hands are small...

people always taking granted of me....now i know its just not me...my parents have been taken granted so many times too....like this morning when they went to ipoh...two men came to them, lied to them asking for money...they said their car is broken and one of the men's father just passed away and they need money to go back...my father and mother gave them a sum of money....this is just an example...

Our neighbours always borrowing things from us...from the smallest items like scissors,iron,blender and to big things like cars and money....and they always fail to return them if not being ask...money?....one of the neighbours have been borrownig money for years and never pay her debt back and we keep giving her...yesterday was the last time she borrowed us money...dont know when she's going to come again.

I myself have problems like that too.....my friends look at me as a bank...always borrowing money that i cant even buy things that i wanted because of them......Oooo i know its not good to complain and i like helping people but sometimes i think people are using us.

I remembered when I need to use some money and wanted to borrow from them and no one even give a damn..they gave so many reasons. I didn't yell at them or anything that time because i believe them...but what if the people that owe you 200 bucks bought a new phone...he can afford a phone but cannot pay what he owed....

I don't like to be stingy...i can't stand when people looked att me with sad eyes and asked for help...but when somebody asked me to make a loan so that he can borrowed it for his wedding ahhhhhhhhhhhhh of course i opened my eyes...you want to get maried and i'll necome your victim....FUCK OFF!!....and he didn't pay yet everything he owes me before too....I'm not rich...my family have always been "sederhana"...and we like helping people but this is too much....I will not say that i will not help anyone anymore but i'll be more careful next time....

Hmmmm i shouldn't write all this...what if he reads it and feel bad...i never liked to make people feel bad and i feel bad when i can't help people inneed.....but i have to think bout myself too.....

from this day forward i would not easily trust anyone...

Ohhh tetibe teringat lagu dari Jewel....




Hands lyrics

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

Ohhhh aku demam ropenye....

semalam aku terperangkap dalam ujan...terpakse lepak sampei kul 2 baru leh balik....pagi tadi aku xlalu nak pg keroje..jd aku ponteng...aku msg rakan sejawat mintak tolong bgtau kerani...maleh nak tepon kerani nanti dier suh datang 2 jam le ape le...kalo datang 2 jam pastu balik kire sbg hadir....tp xlalu le...tido lg best rasenye....


Walopun aku xpg keje tp aku gi meetng ptg tu...lepas meeting aku pg klinik nak amek MC....disebabkan aku memg batuk dan selsema jadi aku xmenipu doktor....aku bgtau doktor...sehari sebelum Raye aku demam...yaaa memg aku demam dan raye aku xbest dengan batuk dan mukus yang sentiasa ade di dalam hidung aku...dan semenjak hari tu sampei skg aku masih lagi batuk dan selsema...tp aku ingat aku xdemam dah.... doktor kuorkan termometer, aku ingat nak buh bawah lidah...aku bukak mulut....ropenye letak bawah ketiak...same mcm semalam laaa ketike aku melawat doktor alergik aku...ingat nak cucuk kat bahu ropenye kat punggung....malu nyeeeeee.......

Selepas check up, doktor kate aku demam lagi...huishh lamenye aku demam dri sebelum raye dan aku pun xtahu aku demam lagi...patut le aku rase lemah je....patut le balik sekolah je aku terus tido..ok..ok aku tipu selame ni pun memang balik sekolah aku tido dulu...tp lamenye aku demam...adakah sebab aku selalu bergantung pada ubat aku jadi lemah...tp kalo xmakan ubat rase mcm lagi terok.....lantak le...aku memg dah biasa dengan ubat...dari kecik dulu lagi...kenape?....nanti le aku cite..... lepas meeting mesti banyak keroje...keroje yg ade ni pun banyak xsetel lagi tambah lagi lak...bencinye aku....baik aku jadi kerani camni....aku rase keroje aku dah macam kerani...bukan cikgu dah...

sian bebudak aku...asyik2 mesti aku ade meeeting le taklimat le....seminggu 2 3 kali...ape le deme nak belajor camni....rosak le reputasi aku...dah 3 tahun prestasi UPSR meningkat semenjak aku masuk...kali ni tah ape nak jadi....tu le nape la aku ramah sangat ngan cikgu2 sekolah len...dah ade je progm aku kene jemput....uhhhhhh xsuke nye aku.... Hmmm aku rase nak pindah sekolah le...aku dah boring pegang sume jawatan kat sekolah ni...rase mcm dibuli pun ade...aku xsuke bertanggung jawab sebenarnye sebab bile aku dapat tanggung jawab aku akan lakukan bebetoi...amanah kan....mak bapak aku jugak yg ajar jd amanah ni...tp sifat ni yang buat orang suke gunekan aku....

aku rase xsedap ati bile xjalankan tanggung jawab dengan betoi,,,dan sekarang aku rase xsedap hati sebab asyik keluar meeting le,taklimat le,bengkel le....bebudak sekolah dah mcm lembab...memg syllabus dah nak abih aku pulun tp macm terkejar-kejar....aku xnak hanya ajar mereka untuk lulus peperiksaan...aku nak ajar mereka untuk mase depan....

maaf le aku xmenggunakan tatabahasa yang xbetoi...aku bukan cikgu bahasa melayu....selame ni pun memg bm aku xberape cerodik...aku xpenah pun dapat A dalm BM......Ohhh lagipun aku gune blog ni untuk buang stress dan aku rase seronok bile pakei merapu je tulih...aku xpenah buat draft ke ape ke...aku merapu untuk kebahagian aku..huhuhuhuhuh.....

bawah aku include gambar ubat-ubatan aku yg kene makan bulan ni....td jemu tgu dapatr ubat aku snap pic dengan nset aku...aku xpandai snap picture....dan nset aku pun xmempunyai cam yg baguih...jd ni je yang ade...aku ngantuk sebab dah byk makan ubat ni...nak tido awai rrr....


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

The Eight Raya Reunion For Cliffordian 2000....

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

eat your words!!!!!!

Sebelum aku mule...aku nak gelak jahat dulu...muahahahahahahahah..... hehe malam ni lawok pulok rasenye...mgkin xlawok bg kamu pembace atau kpde Rynof sbb dier yg kene....tapi aku tabik la kat Rynof ni(iye aku tau "Rynof" apenye pesen name le....) sbb dier brani makan ape yg dier cakap....

Tempat kami lepok dekat ngan 1 tmpat ni yg ade open karoeke...xpnh la plak kami lepok situ....rase mcm malu je kalo lepok
situ.....orang2 tua je lepok situ......dari tmpat lepok kami tu leh dengo nyanyian2 sumbang yang memg jadi bahan ketawe... ape le beraninye deme ni buat pencemaran bunyi....karok kat rumoh udoh le....

Rynof bleh cakap beso lak malam tu....jadi kami cabar dier pg menyumbangkan suasana malam kat tmpat kerok tu....dier leh dengan blagak cakap " aku selambe je..."...hmmm mgkin memule dier ingat kami memain kot...memg memain je memule tp dah dier blagok pe lagi.......

Dalam sejarah...kami pg tmpat tu....hek elleh patut le kami xpnh pg memg xbest pun tempat tu...dengan gelap nye,xterurus nye.
...tp cabaran nye pasey kami sanggup merosakkan gegendang telinge..... Kami cabar dier 5 lagu tp dier sanggup 4 je...sebenonye takjub jgak dier berani sampei 4...ingatkan nak bg alasan ape ke...ehhhh ke dier memg suke bende2 camni....aku ingat kot dier ni pemalu.....tp memg pilihan lagu yg ade pun tepahhappe je...

Ni le sedikit klip sumbangan lagu yg memuntohkan ramai pengunjung kat situ...kalo kome nak pg kedai tu esok, maap le..tutup kot...nak mop lantei bukan senang...wahahahaha......
_pengajaran untuk malam ni..-JANGAN CAKAP BESAR.
*muke cuak....ececece xyoh blakun cool le....awok tau mike cuak...

gua respek rrr sama lu.....
**maaf kualiti video yang koman.....gune nset je...dan tempat tu gelap sungguh...


Friday, October 10, 2008

Wahahahaha this is my dark side....the true me...not that weak green lantern....


Your results:
You are Venom
Venom
73%
Magneto
66%
Apocalypse
64%
Two-Face
61%
Dr. Doom
54%
Mystique
53%
Dark Phoenix
51%
Riddler
44%
Catwoman
42%
Juggernaut
37%
The Joker
36%
Lex Luthor
36%
Green Goblin
33%
Mr. Freeze
32%
Kingpin
32%
Poison Ivy
31%
http://www.thesuperheroquiz.com/villain
Strength, disguise and adrenaline are your greatest weapons.

I was defeated by an egg...what a Yoke!!!

I'm a grown man...just 1 look at me and you know it....I got hairy arms and my face.?...if I didn't shave for 3 days, a lion can live in this savannah...but...an egg..yes an egg has ruin my whole reputation..huhuhuhuhu
last week I went to 7e to buy cigarettes...I looked upon this egg-shape things on the counter...they were shining in orange and white under the light...I was intrigue by them...I wondered what they were....but I kept my cool....

Two days after that I found myself in 7E again...buying my daily dose of smoke...the egg-shape things on the counter was sold out....uhhh...in just two days and they were sold out...made me wondered again...my curiosity struck me...m like going mad to know what's in the egg....I read the box that they were in...it said "50 surprises"...uhhh...

and tonight....I found myself buying it...I lost my macho infront of the cashier...this egg was making me trembling with curiosity that the cashier giggled meant nothing..All I could think off was the thing inside the egg..I rush and opened it.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm....I lost my macho for this thing....is it worth it?........ uh uh the bad thing is I still have the heart to buy another 1...maybe the next egg will really suprise me....huhuhuhuh a grown man was defeated by this egg...watch out...maybe u'll loose ur cool just like me...

Sorry for the blurry pictures.....(kamera nset cap ayam)


Sunday, October 5, 2008

aku superhero wahahahahahhaah

wahahhaah xsangke aku adelah green lantern...tp aku ingat nak jadi mcm JUMPER....lagi best....bleh melancong....aku siap leh bukak travel agency lagi...aku bagi rege lagi muroh dari Air Asia msti laku gile..pastu wat pakej Haji..huhuhuhu konon buat kebaikan le kan....ade power msti buat kebaikan kan?....nanti senang je aku bawak org pg haji....
I am Green Lantern

























Green Lantern
80%
Batman
70%
The Flash
65%
Catwoman
60%
Hulk
55%
Iron Man
55%
Robin
50%
Superman
45%
Spider-Man
40%
Supergirl
40%
Wonder Woman
20%
Hot-headed. You have strong
will power and a good imagination.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Selamat Hari Raya....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua....gamba ni amek kat sini je...xpandai le nak edit2 gamba ni......Ohhhh Minta Maaf Zahir & Batin.....mane le tau kot ade tersilap bahase atau kate yg terase......

awek untuk kawan ku....


Hoi Rynof..ni aku keneikn Ryna....mike kan obses dengan badok..bajet kuat mcm badok..lambat macm badok...jd awok keneikan le dengn awek yang lebih kurang psiko macam mike...hihihi...Ohhh ye...sebenonye kengkawan rase kalo mike ni badok pun bukan badok sumbu tapi badok ayor...huhuhuhuhuhuhuh

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Issue 1 : Stolen Identity...(Part 5)


Ok, I know this story is too long...let me cut it short then...

At the end, Majin-Boo divorced with her husband and Shrek also got a divorced. Both of them got married and even have a child together. They have a collection of children now from previous marriges. Both of them live happily until now. Their past haven't hunt them..or maybe just not yet....everything went fine for them..my life?...well that's another story....

p/s : - To Majin-Boo and Shrek,
I forgive both of you. I hope Both of you have a peaceful life together.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Ish....

hari ni aku xpegi kelas...aku merampus je pagi tadi...iye aku nak berenti..tp kenape rase xsedap hati je....

aku tido sampei kul 5 petang..ayoyo gile ke ape aku ni....tp bile aku bangun aku dah xmarah mcm pagi tadi...switch onn nset aku tgk ade banyak masg...tanye nape xpg kelas...

woiiiiiiiiiiiiii...jangan berlakon mcm amek berat la...pirrraaahhhh mabuk.....aku nak pinjam nota pun xpnh bg..bnyak je alasan...aku tanye je msti kate xtau..bodoh.lepas tu nak berlakon amek berat la ape la...konon caring la ape la....aku bukan bebudak laa bleh kene tipu camtu je.... bodoh punye bodoh....

berbelah bagi

hati aku dah bebrbelah bagi ni...aku dah tulih surat tangguh belajo...tp aku berbelah bagi nak anto ke x.....aku memg xlarat dah ni tp harapan orang laen....

lagi2 td ade org cakap...kalo kamu pun berenti...aku nak mintak blaja pun takut.....

deme ingat aku kuat...aku lemah sebenarnye...

aku ade byk pengalaman pahit..

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Happy Birthday Mamat!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMAT!!!

kucar-kacir

kucar-kacir nye hidup aku ni...
malm ni aku nak kemas bilik....
mungkin hilang serabut sket.......

betoi ke macm ni.....







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Tuan,

PERMOHONAN UNTUK MENANGGUHKAN PENGAJIAN

Seperti perkara diatas, saya ingin memohon untuk menangguhkan pengajian saya hingga tahun hadapan iaitu pada tahun 2009. Saya berada di semester keempat ketika ini. Butir-butir saya adalah seperti berikut ;

No. Pelajar : 2006103***

No.K/P : 83******-08-****

Program : Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan (Kepujian)(TESL)

Fakulti : Pendidikan

Semester kemasukan : Disember 2006

2. Saya memohon maaf diatas segala kesulitan yang berlaku kerana permohonan saya ini. Saya tidak mampu untuk meneruskan pengajian ini buat sementara waktu diatas beberapa kesulitan yang diakibatkan oleh kerjaya saya. Jika saya meneruskan jua pengajian di semester (4) ini saya pasti saya tidak mampu untuk mencapai tahap kelulusan yang ditetapkan.

3. Kerjasama dan budi baik Tuan amatlah saya hargai. Harapan saya, semoga permohonan saya ini akan dipertimbangkan sepenuhnya.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Yang benar,

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