Sunday, October 22, 2017

What is the price of happiness???

I.... am easily satisfied with what I have and achieved even when to you it looked like nothing. I don't care how much money you made in your life or what kind of car you drive. I drive a simple and cheap car and I am satisfy with the car. I don't envy other people with better, bigger, faster and more expensive cars. I'll buy what I can afford and I will be satisfy with it....

mannnnnnnn.... why did I suddenly have the urge to write after a lonnnnnng time????? well, because I felt discontent by people around me.

I bought a watch recently and I like it. It is not very expensive but to my standard of living, it is quite a sum of saving. People kept asking the price when they saw the watch and I would just say... Ohhh not that much or expensive and then they will relate to their friend's watch or somebody else they know... "ohhhh my friend bought a 20K watch.... Oh My friend have a Rolex.... oh. Those people you talk about can afford the expensive watches and good for them... why do you want to compare them to me... I'm not in the same league with your rich friends... Can't you just say..." Oh that is a nice watch.".... why everything needs to be compare..???...oh and those expensive watches are your friend's not can't afford those watches yourselves too..... and I don't give a damn about your friends luxurious life...

Oh my.... I am rambling like stupid here. wellllll, nobody reads this blog so what the HELL should I care !!!!.... hahahahahhhahah


Monday, September 4, 2017

New chapter in my life

I've decided to continue my study at UPSI. This will be my third sem but I need to repeat 2 papers I failed last sem. I did terrible last sem and there were many things I blamed on for all the faillure but in the end it s me who determined the success or failure of my life. I PROMISE to do better this semester. I wantnto get as many A's as I can get.... before my target was only to pass all the subjects but now my target is to get the best I can.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017


Just want to give up. Tired of all the fuss. I want to be free of responsibility. I just want to live for me and not others.

Friday, January 27, 2017

Sleeplessness all year round

I forsaken God but God haven't forsaken me. I am a sinner. Repeatedly over and over again but I still feel the grace of God. I am grateful and have the urge to change my way of life. I have been postponing the remake of me for so long... I do want to change but I always find reasons to postpone the changes.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Duty and honour

Oh please let me sleep tonight. I want to be wide awake tomorrow at day. Let me be free of the web entangling me from my duty as a human.

Normal and grumpy

Nights and days pass like normal. It is I who is not normal. Sleeping all days and at nights my eyes are wide awake. If I am a vampire or some sort of a supernatural being then this might be normal. I possess all the human weaknesses and neither of the strengths nor do I have any inhuman power as well. I am just a man who is always grumpy...

Friday, July 3, 2015

Days and nights

Every time I'm in my bed I would hope that tomorrow I'll be a better man.

When I wake up... I would be just the same and postponed the change for tomorrow... that night I would regret it and hope to be a better man next morning. Its a never ending cycle for years now...

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Lost in the middle of nowhere

I can't believe that I would be lost in this age. I used to know who I was and where I wanted to go. I knew what I wanted and how I could achieve my goals... Now, I'm lost... I have to start all over again. Start my life again and I hope I'm in the righteous road. I stumbled on too many obstacles in my journey before that I felt it was easier to lay down and just do nothing. Waiting for whatever may come...

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Sahur pertama Ramadhan ini....

Mungkin terlebih "excited" sampai langsung xtido menunggu waktu nak sahur. Xtau la mcm mane nti kat tmpt koje... rasenye boleh tahan mengantuk nanti tp kesannye bile sampai rumah dri koje mesti ter...diulangi ter-tido sampai la magrib nak berbuka....akan ku cuba untuk tidak terlajak tido... oh mak xbangun lagi....lupe nk kunci kan jam mak td...nak kejut mcm xsampai ati...uhhh tp kalo xkejut lagi la macam salah....nanti la kul 5pagi baru kejut.... tahun2 sebelum ni  mak slalu suh kunci jam pukul 4.30 pagi....awal2 pagi tu macam2 la plak dier masak...sian....penat plak dier nanti...nak tolong masak hmmmm aku masak air bleh laaaaa.... patutnye beli roti semalam...bleh makan ngan kari semalam...sedapppppp kari perangat balik...huhu....mcm over sharing plak aku kali ni....ohhh lantakkan...kenkadang tulis merapu ikut suke ni la yang dapat tenangkan fikiran dan dapat fikir dengan lebih baik...luahan perasaan...

nampak macam lampu ruang dah terbuka...mak bangun sebelum sempat nak kejut....

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Stop smoking, start vaping

I been smoking for fifteen years now and I'm sick of it. I tried to quit for quite sometimes now but the habit is hard to kick. I tried vaping two years ago but uhhh the nicotine is not enough to stop smoking. I quit vaping faster than I thought... now I'm trying again but with bigger better vape... The taste of the liquid  is tastier and the clouds of vapour is thicker... hope I could quit smoking this time... ohh the troubled with vaping is the maintenance... need to rebuild and recoiled the atomizer... I'm getting the hand of it now...

Hope I would be able to quit smoking this time...

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