Friday, January 27, 2017

Sleeplessness all year round

I forsaken God but God haven't forsaken me. I am a sinner. Repeatedly over and over again but I still feel the grace of God. I am grateful and have the urge to change my way of life. I have been postponing the remake of me for so long... I do want to change but I always find reasons to postpone the changes.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Duty and honour

Oh please let me sleep tonight. I want to be wide awake tomorrow at day. Let me be free of the web entangling me from my duty as a human.

Normal and grumpy

Nights and days pass like normal. It is I who is not normal. Sleeping all days and at nights my eyes are wide awake. If I am a vampire or some sort of a supernatural being then this might be normal. I possess all the human weaknesses and neither of the strengths nor do I have any inhuman power as well. I am just a man who is always grumpy...

Friday, July 3, 2015

Days and nights

Every time I'm in my bed I would hope that tomorrow I'll be a better man.

When I wake up... I would be just the same and postponed the change for tomorrow... that night I would regret it and hope to be a better man next morning. Its a never ending cycle for years now...

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Lost in the middle of nowhere

I can't believe that I would be lost in this age. I used to know who I was and where I wanted to go. I knew what I wanted and how I could achieve my goals... Now, I'm lost... I have to start all over again. Start my life again and I hope I'm in the righteous road. I stumbled on to many obstacles in my journey before that I felt it was easier to lay down and just so nothing. Waiting for whatever may come...

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Sahur pertama Ramadhan ini....

Mungkin terlebih "excited" sampai langsung xtido menunggu waktu nak sahur. Xtau la mcm mane nti kat tmpt koje... rasenye boleh tahan mengantuk nanti tp kesannye bile sampai rumah dri koje mesti ter...diulangi ter-tido sampai la magrib nak berbuka....akan ku cuba untuk tidak terlajak tido... oh mak xbangun lagi....lupe nk kunci kan jam mak td...nak kejut mcm xsampai ati...uhhh tp kalo xkejut lagi la macam salah....nanti la kul 5pagi baru kejut.... tahun2 sebelum ni  mak slalu suh kunci jam pukul 4.30 pagi....awal2 pagi tu macam2 la plak dier masak...sian....penat plak dier nanti...nak tolong masak hmmmm aku masak air bleh laaaaa.... patutnye beli roti semalam...bleh makan ngan kari semalam...sedapppppp kari perangat balik...huhu....mcm over sharing plak aku kali ni....ohhh lantakkan...kenkadang tulis merapu ikut suke ni la yang dapat tenangkan fikiran dan dapat fikir dengan lebih baik...luahan perasaan...

nampak macam lampu ruang dah terbuka...mak bangun sebelum sempat nak kejut....

Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Stop smoking, start vaping

I been smoking for fifteen years now and I'm sick of it. I tried to quit for quite sometimes now but the habit is hard to kick. I tried vaping two years ago but uhhh the nicotine is not enough to stop smoking. I quit vaping faster than I thought... now I'm trying again but with bigger better vape... The taste of the liquid  is tastier and the clouds of vapour is thicker... hope I could quit smoking this time... ohh the troubled with vaping is the maintenance... need to rebuild and recoiled the atomizer... I'm getting the hand of it now...

Hope I would be able to quit smoking this time...

Saturday, April 4, 2015


32 years old and single. Oh and according to my colleaques I am the catch... oh and many of them want to match me with their daughters,sisters and cousins. Thay all think that I am the most eligible bachelor but they can't be more wrong than they are now....

I don't have the wealth and I think my health is deteriorate too...

Friday, December 26, 2014

Not choosy but not chosen.

     There are so many things in my mind right now but I don't know how to write them all in here.They are jumbled up like thousand pieces of  jigsaw puzzle and I can't even identify the first piece on the board. All the pieces look familiar yet I can't recognised even a piece of it. Like always it sounds gibberish that even I cannot fathom what I'm writing right now. I never planned anything I write here, it just comes out from my mind through my dancing fingers on the keyboard.
     Ohhhh I'm trying to narrow down what I'm writing now but it seems that my brain is malfunction and I can't come out with a topic at all. All this may be  due to lack of sleep. I can't sleep since yesterday and I don't even know why do these two eyelids cannot glued themselves together and let me have my peace in the dreamland. 

Should I stop now?... I still can't sleep if I stop now so I think I should just keep going until my face slammed on the keyboard and drools all over it. I'm going to write randomly now and pardon me if you by mistake came across this blog and read it till this full stop. Maybe, it's time for you to go on with your life and look at other blogs or something. Don't waste your time here. you won't find anything of interest or benefit you.

      If you are still reading this than please forgive me for wasting your the topic I wrote up there was actually about my miserable life of being a bachelor. YUP! a bachelor. I never think about  it too much but people around me keep bothering me with the million dollar questions. I hate that question.....I hate it because I do not have an honest answer. Not that I am not honest but I just don't have the answer that they expected me to give... I had to make excuses or reasons or say something stupid or funny to answer them but the truth is, I don't have the answer... Oh please, stop....just don't ask cruel questions anymore...yesssssssssssssssssssss CRUEL!!!!!!!!!!!!..... you who asked that question is CRUEL!!!!!!!!!!......Ohhhhhhh and after the questions there would usually be some kind of stupid advices too. It's the same as asking a married couple who have not been blessed with children; 

When are going to have children? 
Don't you want to have children? 
Don't you like little kids? 
What are waiting for? 
Are you sick?

then advice them...

Don't wait too long. 
you are not getting any younger.
You should try harder.
You should see a doctor.
You should get a treatment.

Oh. I'm off the topic again. 
hmmmmmmmmmmm I am suddenly tired and ahhhh I should try to sleep's drizzling outside and it's cold...just don't want to write anymore.... Oh. Sorry if you read this rubbish. 

P/S.....what a looser... 

It seems like my eyes are still stubborn. Oh yeah I want to continue with the questions... The questions are;

Why are you not married yet?
Don't you want to get married?
Are you too choosy?
When are you going to get married?
Are you engaged yet?
Did you forgot to invite me to your wedding?
Where is the card?
Blablablablablablablablablablablablablabla............... I can't go on.....bye.... ZzzzzzzZ...

And still awake...huh...
oh my... more than 36hours awake..... am I going bonkers???? down..... rilex.... chill... I'm chillin... breath... k.bye.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Remove the security tag

Eidul Fitri is in just 3 days now. I bought two "sampin" at Mydin and found out that the cashier forgot to remove the security tag. The mall is 25KM from my house. I won't drive there just to remove the tag. I thought my "sampin" would be ruin if I take the tag off by force. "sampin" is very delicate. Luckily there were tips in the youtube on how to remove the tag. Everything is in youtube nowadays. 

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