aerial life

Everyone dreams....I dream everyday..not just with my eyes shut close..all the time... I dream to have a better life..I dream to be a better me..I dream of the unimaginable things....but a dream is just a dream if I don't do anything about it....just like 'angan-angan mat jenin'......

A friend posted on her facebook wall " am I  philophobic n gamophobic???....I searched for the meaning using uncle Google....found the meaning in the urban dictionary.... "philophobic =  philophobia n (Greek philia, love + phobia, fear) - a persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of love and intimacy, of deep relationship with smbd.  " "gamophobic = t o have an irrational fear of marriage 'he couldn't marry her,because he was severly gamophobic" Hey..!! I think I have the phobics too.... Since the last post till now, I met four fantastic ladies( not in the same time). I like them but when things got almost serious, I ran... I was afraid if things got too serious that they wanted to settle down. I was not ready and still not ready. The idea of marriage scared me. The responsible that a man carries as a husband is too big. I'm just not ready to carry that burden on my shoulder yet. I like the way I am now. Free. Free to do anything I like.....

Semua orang adalah orang biase je....jalan yg dipilih dan risiko yg diambil yg membezakan....jadi kamu pun bleh jadi mcm orang2 yg kamu anggap hebat tu....

iftar at Cheng Ho Aku ingat iftar tu memule stand for ape2..cam I.F.T.A.R....ropenye mksudnye bokak pose je le..hahaha sampei aku google kt wiki baru aku tau...huhu lembabnye......skg dah tau bru leh gune pekataan tu...huhu iftar at seoul garden....terbaek wooooo......

It's like buying a lottery ticket. You won't know if you'll win but you're hoping that you will. That's my life now. I keep hoping that I'll change but hoping is just not enough. I need yo get up smell the coffee and do it. Just do it.  It seems that I'm not on the wheel. Fate is driving this life and I laid back watching from the passenger seat. I won't go anywhere I wanted to go. I just waited for fate to hold the brake and I get off anywhere it stopped. That's not a good life. No it isn't. No for sure. If I want what I want, then I need to grab the wheel and drives my own life. fate can sit next to me. It can be my co-driver but I should be the driver. I'll drive to destinations I wanted to go and stopped anywhere I wanted. To drive I need to know where I wanted to go. for that I need a plan. I have maps to everywhere but I need to put a pin on where is the best place to go right now.  A boy won't need to worry about all this. Just...

You may think nothing can go wrong. life's unpredictable....everything you got can be taken away just like that....all the things you're proud off can be your destruction.....so,hey! don't brag too much....be thankful of what you have and don't be mean to others.....

" Hak guru Lebih Agung dari hak IBU BAPA, sebab orang tua penyebab adanya kita sekarang & kehidupan yang fana. Smentera GURU, penyebab hidup yang KEKAL. Sekiranya tidak ada guru, nescaya apa yang dihasilkan & diarahkan oleh orang tua akan celaka selamanya~~~Imam Al-Ghazali~~~   I do not know if the quote that I cite above is really from Imam Al-Ghazali. I read it somewhere from the wall of someone's facebook. is it right or not that's another story but is it true or not?...well, recently i watched a video that trigger a lot of questions and reactions. Let's watch it together...here it is... as a teacher, I do not agreed with what the teacher did too. I think he was provoking the student to act that way. Why didn't he just let go for a while. consult the student later. The student was angry and cant think straight. He should let the boy cool down first. I guess he was the discipline teacher of that school. He had to look strict and mean or he would l...

The 1st sahur of the month.....I eat like there is no tomorrow. with cigarette on my lips I hope this Ramadhan would mean more than just the act of holding my mouth from food. It's easy not to eat on the day but Ramadhan means more than that. I hope to become a better person after the Ramadhan. 

people in the school are worrying....I'm smiling all day long....It started last Tuesday....Got tonnes of work but I'm happy....haha...not happy of the workload...happy bout other things.... Just came back from a meeting... exhausted....but I'm smiling....don't wanna tell you why....but I'm smiling... a bird can shit on my head now and I'll still be smiling..... I want to write longer post but too sleepy......good night....ZZZZZzzz :) ...ZZzzz :) ZZzzzz :) ........ZZzzz ;p...ZZzz :). haha

Bought some photo's yesterday....they were cheap but they are nice enough to be hang on my wall. Hmm I want to hang my own stuffs after this...need to get out more and shoot that DSLR.....

Today I met a girl. Radiant like the sun and soothing like the night...

What is a perfect life?...I wanted a perfect life and by perfect I interpreted it wrongly. I wanted fortune and wealth. Spend on anything I wanted on. I wanted time. Travel anywhere and anytime I wanted to. I wanted happiness. Friends all around me and family and girls drooling after me. haha... its a nice dream. perfect is just a dream. It is not life when it's perfect. It's a dream.  dreaming is wrong when you dream of something you can never achieved. 

m building another pc. The old pc is too old. I bought it on my 1st year of working. That was 6 years ago. It runs on pentium 4. It's dat old. I watched youtube on how to assemble the parts and it looked easy. It will be my experiment. I bought the casing yesterday and I am thrill to build it. I'm just using the old stuffs I have now. I have with me 2 old motherboards, 3 graphic cards, 1 old hard drive(hope it can still be used),2 pieces of 512 rams which I cant use anymore, 2 optical drives and an intel processor pentium D that I got from a friend. Yes,yes I know nobody uses pentium D anymore. Like I told you, this is just an experiment. Once this 1 works then I'll upgrade to a newer version of processor. I didn't buy most of the things now. Hmm where can I get ddr2 rams for free?.. It'll be a waste if i buy them. As am just gonna use them temporarily.

Words and music by freddie mercury and john deacon Another red letter day So the pound has dropped and the children are creating The other half ran away Taking all the cash and leaving you with the lumber Got a pain in the chest Doctors on strike what you need is a rest Its not easy love but youve got friends you can trust Friends will be friends When you're in need of love they give you care and attention Friends will be friends When you're through with life and all hope is lost Hold out your hands cos friends will be friends right till the End Now it's a beautiful day The postman delivered a letter from your lover Only a phone call away You tried to track him down but somebody stole his number As a matter of fact Youre getting used to life without him in your way Its so easy love cos you got friends you can trust Friends will be friends When you're in need of love they give you care and attention Friends will be friends When you're thro...

Hi friends....I created a new blog. Just for photography. It is not ready yet. if you care to drop by then come and visit http://silverleaf-silver.blogspot.com Ohhhh with the new blog around, it doesn't mean that I'm closing this blog. This here is my heart. I can't leave it......

lame gile xberblog!!!! aimok!! rindu rasenye.....tapi xde idea nk tulih skg....hmmmmmm nanti2......

私はもう自分の仕事を好きではない。私は子供を教えるですが、私はすべての事務作業を行うには好きではない。彼らは非常に多くのレポートと割り当てていま す。私は教育省は、実際に学校の条件を知らないと思う。彼らが知っていれば、彼らはヘルパーのすべての論文では、仕事を洞で私たちが送信されます 私は日本の文章で書くなぜ私に依頼しないでください。私は試してみたい。

私は兄弟がいる。彼は麻薬中毒です。彼は私のお金を盗んだとの距離クアラルンプールを実行します。彼は彼と私のバイクを取った。私は彼と一緒に行うにはわ からない。彼は他の悪いことを盗んで警察に逮捕されていた。私は恐れて、彼は別の罪を自分のバイクを使って行うとしている午前 彼は私に恥をもたらすでしょう。私はこの文章を読んで私の友達をしたくないので、私は日本語の文章で書いています。夜今のところ良好です。私は常に私は、 悲しみと怒り不安を感じて書いてください。

Some one told me before that those lights you switch on to bright the dark night need positive and negative cell to work. Hmmm something like that...I don't really remember the exact words but almost like that... I created this blog last year and hidden it from the world...I dump all my anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness and all the negative thoughts in the blog. It was the way I channeled all the negative aura out of the system. Then, I opened the blog to public. I changed the layout and deleted all the things that might offended anybody. I imported things from my older blog here and try to be more open. I got some followers and even cared for what they would think after reading any of the entries I posted in the blog. I toned down my voice and wrote things that were not important to me or anybody. There was like a boundary that stopped me from writing what I really wanted to write......I lost the plank to sunk the nails....the hammer and nails were kept in the closet an...

the last five years, I been a slave to work. There were too many things to do and the time seem so short but I managed to settled everything and I was amazed myself. This year I got less work but i don't know what is wrong that I feel that time is still short. the work now is not as much as what I got last year but time is still so short in a day. My time management is terrible. I felt like I'm inside a quick sand and it would drowned me any time now.....I'm going to sleep now and wake up in a better tomorrow...

Calculated my BMI after being guilty of eating burger late at night.......Ohhhhh at the end of the normal scale...still normal but going to the other line any time from now.... It's not about being fat that I care about. It's not the look that I concerned. It;s all about the health. Facts show that fat people are prone to disease such as heart problem, diabetes and other things too....I'm not saying that thin people are invincible from the disease and problems. Ohhh I don't need to babble here about all the facts and myth...If you can use the internet to read this post then you must have the knowledge to google it yourselves about health and so on....go ahead..!!.. look it up,...Its good to know about your own body..... ...** I calculated my BMI here..  http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bmi-calculator/NU00597   you can also do it here.... http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bminojs.htm or here..... http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bmi-m.htm  

I got a hamper in the lucky draw of the PIBG meeting. The hamper was not big and expensive but I was happy because it had been so long since I won anything.  The first time I won something was when I was in standard two. I won this 'saguhati' prize from a magazine. It was just a notebook. A plain stupid notebook that looked cheap and not interesting. The second time was when i was still in college. A lucky draw after an event. I had never been so lucky in my life. Usually i don't get anything from any contest. When I was in secondary school, I entered hundreds of contests and I never won any of them. Oh oh recently I entered the perodua contest. Not really like a contest. Just fill in a form and give it at the counter. Only the customer who paid more than RM200 can enter the contest. I didn't put hope in it but when the girl at the counter said "good luck" on the contest, I was like thrill!!...I don't know why but it felt good when somebody wish you somet...

I went to KL for my elder sister convocation.....I dunno how can she works and still gets her master...She is very strong...maybe one day I'll would be able to do the same....hope that the 'one day' is not so far ahead......oh yes, I blurred the picture on purpose.... My sister won't approved of putting her picture on the net...

I have to admit. It's dreadful just to admit it... I am a heavy smoker.....I know it's bad for health... not just health...Its bad for my pocket to....hmmm I didn't stated any resolution for this year....well I say this is a good time to state it..... My resolution for this year is to stop smoking....by the end of this year, no more poison will enter my lung......oh oh....people told me not to stop instantly..It's bad for health...the body will be shocked....

Time t pay the debt of the tag....here are the other half of ten things you should know about me....well not that I assume anyone has interest in reading about me....but it's a tag...and a tag is a tag.... 6. I live with my parents....the only time I had been parted with them was the years in college. That was three years. Three wild years. The Three years I learned about life and people. 7. I never studied hard in my life. I don't know how or maybe I was just plain lazy. My UPSR, PMR, SPM results were all average. Just good enough for me not to hide them from my parents. hahahaha.... When I was in college, the laziness continued but at the end of the year, I changed.....I was quite proud of my CGPA...not that kind of proud that I want to tell everybody I meet what I got but proud enough to smile..... 8. I did not always want to be a teacher....I did not know what I want to do when I was in school...I had no ambition....maybe that's why I don't have the motivation to...

I was tagged by aimee ..I have to write 10 things about me..at 1st, I wanted to answer the tag tomorrow but I just cant get some shut eyes yet.. I'm doing this post via phone so I'm sorry if I didn't link anything here..hmm let see, what should I tell about me..I'm not an interesting guy..I don't have much to tell... 1. I am not very tall. Just the average 175cm tall and my skin is tanned..ahaks(just another way to say 'dark'). I don't think that I am overweight but the bmi showed that I should loose some pounds. My weight is 75kg...oh I know you don't want to know bout all these.. 2. I like chocolate and cheese very much.. I like chocolate in the form of cake, drinks, ice cream or chocolate bar but I only like cheese in the form of cake..ohh my..now I know where all these fat came from..hehe.. 3. I don't like to drive. I prefer being in the passanger seat but usually I was the one driving now. They knew all my tricks not to drive and they won...

The one thing that all teachers like about the job is the long holidays......................Ohhhhhhh bestnye!!!!!!!!!!

got another photoshoot for a friend engagement ceremony. I'm always up for photo shoot but when it's only free meal, I feel half awake...oh my english is getting bad..need to brush up..need to write often to fix it. Bye bye, see you at the next post.

just an update... This year is not like any other year. I have to do things that I avoided in my school day. I became the Head teacher for 'scouts'. that mean I have to go for camping and build campfire and be friend with nature and all. When I was in School I never been camping. Oh oh maybe one time when I was in standard 4 and two times when I was in college. I had been reluctant all those times but I managed to do all the activities. It's not that I don't know how to make up the tents or starts a fire. I just don't like them. Jungle trekking and all those physical activities were not that hard but I just don't like to do them. I don't like to queue up just to take a bath, sleeps together in a tent or doing all those group work. Oh oh and I don't like sleeping in a tent. Ohhh and when you have to share a tent with two or three people cramping in that small space...How could anyone sleeps..?..When I was in secondary school, I had been to 'Koku' ...

Its 16 minutes past 12....not my birthday anymore... Do I feel older? Nop..... I feel the same.... I would like to thank everybody who had wished 'happy birthday' on the facebook and the blog....

Selamat Hari Jadi kepada diri sendiri.

It's been a while since I wrote the last post. I don't know why but I just don't know what to write anymore. A lot of things happened but there were just no words to describe the events. I'm going to be 27 years old this Saturday. I feel old. Wahahaha....I intend to get married before I'm 30 but now I don't know if I would be able to fulfill that plan of mine. I have nobody right now and that makes it hard to live on the plan. I do not want to get married just because I want to get married. I want to get married because I want to marry that special woman. Ohh am I sounded grumpy and delusional ??..haha...Oh oh I better stop now.....I don't want to write craps and make a fool of myself...A loser like me have nothing but pride...if that pride is gone then I have nothing...so let me keep my sanity for a while as that's the only pride I have now......Ohh I sounded like a lunatic one more time...shhhh.. Stop! stop!..people gonna think I'm crazy...huhu

Lying has always been my game. If there is one thing that I'm good at, it's lying.....Lying is not easy...its like art. You need to use your imagination and make it looks real enough so that it's easy to believe it. Lie like you believe it too. I have never get caught lying but that maybe because I never lied when I don't need to...lying has been the tool to get out of a problem or a situation where I cant get out...Oh oh but in this shit I'm in now....lying would not get me anywhere. so, for once in my life...I'll try to be honest in getting out of the shit....oh oh but I need that persuasion skill more than ever now huhuhuhuuhu...

I'm in deep shit now and I can't find the way out of the shit. The smell is killing me and I can't hold my breath anymore. I won't breath in this shit and I might die for not doing so. P/s...wow my horoscope today sounded good.... The Bottom Line Don't be tricked by false memories. The past is never as perfect as you remember. In Detail You've been playing around with a certain hobby for a while, and it's suddenly dawned on you that you really and truly might be able to make a full-time job of this -- or at least a part-time source of income. It's a good idea and you shouldn't dismiss it. You might, however, want to come up with a solid plan before you quit your day job, that is. Get out some legal pads and start scribbling.

I missed this blog. I haven't update it in a very long time. There are comments I didn't reply yet. hmmmmmm i am so sorry bloggers friends. I'll update as soon as I sort all this entanglement that keep me out pf this blog.

It's a boring life. I don't get exited over anything anymore. I thought this is the life I was meant to live but I was wrong. This mask I put on is too thick that I don't feel anything anymore. There are people around me that regards me as friend but I just don't know what is friendship anymore. I am and empty shell. There is no one behind this mask. It is just a thick mask. A mask that has nothing to hide. A mask that that is only a mask.

Its only February and I already feel like I need a vacation. I have not been very active in blogging lately. I did post up a thing or two but I didn't had the time to visit other blogs. I missed my blogger friends. I been busy lately. Busy with school's stuffs. This is the 1st year I am in SK school and everything is still fine until this point. The atmosphere in the new school is difference from the previous but I can still adapt to it. I am a chameleon. I can shift my colours according to the surrounding. This year, I only teach standard 1 and 2. I'm so happy about it. only 2 classes of standard 2 classes and 1 standard 1 class. I taught from year 1 to year 6 for five years straight before and now I feel heaven. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> The first day I set my feet in this school was last December...I met the headmaster and the clerk. ever...

she was the one that I sang the 'my way' song too....in this picture, she was singing the same song to the students. This was a week earlier. She love that song and the music teacher decided to dedicate this song to her and I was just there at that time to be the victim hahahahaha...... She was a great teacher. Her passion for teaching inspired me. I only knew her for 3 weeks and she helped me a lot in those 3 weeks. She helped me decorated my class...This is the 1st time I become a class teacher and I just dont know all this decorating stuffs..... she did everything....hahahaha...... p/s. tgk movie smlm lalu kat crocs.....ingatkan nak tahan diri dri beli pape....sekali terbeli crocs haha.......

bukan malas berblog tp tgh sebok panjat memanjat..dlm game ni.

Yes I am going to make a fool of myself....CeHHH!! Why did I fell for this.....A teacher in my new school is going to retire tomorrow....It's her last day tomorrow....she sang this Frank Sinatra song last Monday and a music teacher of the school ask me to sing that song tomorrow for her while he plays the keyboard.......OHHhhhhhh I'm going to make such a fool of myself tomorrow...........here, listen to this video...I tried it out in my room.....forgive me if it gives you nightmares hahaha.... rase mcm ade hingus dalam idung....nyanyi cam org kene selseme je.....padehei aku idok selseme pun...agoknye org len memg dengo sore aku mcm org kene selseme kot...................

Ini Mi segera. Memg buh telur je. nampak cam xselera.. tapi ni mak yang masak. Bile mak yang masak....mi segera pun rase sangat sedap!!....xtipu!! betol!!!...xtau le nape....masak sendiri kompem xleh sedap camnih.... P/s....tgh demam dan mengada nak makan mi segera...hehe

cett rugi RM2.10 aku...dah kering...

I can't even remember the last movie I watched......sigh........I miss hanging out......

This year is very new to me. everything changed and the routine that I babbled and hated so much is gone. It's a new start and I do not want to repeat the same mistake I'd done before. Today is the 16th day of this new life and I still did not figured out how I should sorted everything in the right way. I am still a procrastinator and that should be changed to. I am trying my best to make a good use of this new life I bought. The price was high. The price was my freedom.... p/s....Oh oh by the way, the pics up there are not the picture of someone being an angel or anything.......it's someone lost in the jungle and hopes that he had starbucks's ice blended and wings to fly out the jungle.......

lagu lame yang aku suke....dari Louis Armstrong... Gimme a kiss to build a dream on And my imagination Will thrive upon that kiss Sweetheart, I ask no more than this A Kiss to build a dream on Give me a kiss before you leave me and my imagination will feed my hungry heart Leave me one thing before we part A kiss to build a dream on When I'm alone with my fancies I'll be with you Weaving romances Making believe they're true Oh, gimme your lips for just a moment and my imagination will make that moment live Give me what you alone can give A kiss to build a dream on Gimme a kiss to build a dream on And my imagination Will thrive upon that kiss Sweetheart, I ask no more than this A Kiss to build a dream on Give me a kiss before you leave me and my imagination will feed my hungry heart Leave me one thing before we part A kiss to build a dream on When I'm alone with my fancies I'll be with you Weaving romances Making believe they're true Oh, gimme your lips for just a...

tot u cn fix it n u let it b 4 a while...then its too late coz it's beyond repair. U cn run bt u cnt never hide. U wanna lie but ur tongue froze. U get the blame and u r 2 b blamed. It's ur own fault 4 bein a procrestinate. U cnt lifted the blame 2 any1 else coz u'r too timid n felt guilty. U shud feel guilty coz it is ur fault. Whatcha gonna do now? Whatcha gonna do? Hell is nearing n u'r nt prepared.. U cn scream bt then u gonna get hurt faster then..whatcha gonna do? Ohh just what u gonna do.↲↲↲

I watched "The confession of a shopaholic for the second time now. The 1st was long ago. Ok, not that long, not when dragons and witches flew in the sky and trample fear to the village folks. EHH...why did I wrote that hahahahahaha.....maybe cause my head's feel heavy now and the pillows and the bed behind me whispering my name now....hohoho I'll be off to the slumber land after I click the 'publish post'...have this urge to write now...huhuhuhu..Ooo i'm out of the topic haha....Ok, I'll start all over again.... It's a shame to admit that I am a shopaholic. I thought this kind of sickness only infects women but I was wrong. Totally wrong. I felt the pleasure of holding something newly bought in my hands. I felt the joy of trying and testing the gadgets in stores. I felt the relieved when the salesman packed up the thing I bought....I felt great when I got those wrapped new things on my hands. The world became a happier place at those time I swapped thos...

Friday, at home in front the laptop. got work to do but I'm feeling lazy now. I want to update the blog but still no ideas. Hmmmm a lot to tell but don't know how to tell them. I stop now. I want to watch Confession Of a Shopaholic. I think I am the male version of a shopaholic. I need to take control of my self. Oh but I don't shop like the girl in that movie. I wasted money on other things. More to gadgets and other men stuffs.... Ohhhhh I thought of writing a very short post. Its longer than the short version I imgined so I have to stop.. bye bye....see you again............

tgh latih mate utk tido awei. Masih blum berjaye. Maaf kengkawan.awal tahun ni sebok sket. Xsmpat nk tulis pape.