It's like buying a lottery ticket. You won't know if you'll win but you're hoping that you will. That's my life now. I keep hoping that I'll change but hoping is just not enough. I need yo get up smell the coffee and do it. Just do it.
It seems that I'm not on the wheel. Fate is driving this life and I laid back watching from the passenger seat. I won't go anywhere I wanted to go. I just waited for fate to hold the brake and I get off anywhere it stopped. That's not a good life. No it isn't. No for sure.
If I want what I want, then I need to grab the wheel and drives my own life. fate can sit next to me. It can be my co-driver but I should be the driver. I'll drive to destinations I wanted to go and stopped anywhere I wanted. To drive I need to know where I wanted to go. for that I need a plan. I have maps to everywhere but I need to put a pin on where is the best place to go right now.
A boy won't need to worry about all this. Just shown that I'm no boy anymore. I'm an adult with the license to drive my own destiny. And drive I will. It gonna be a slow ride for now but once I got the hang of this wheel then I'm going to speed up. no roadblocks can stop me. Ohhh but need to watch out for the speed traps.
Must make sure the engine is in its best condition.
Oh so the best plan I have now is to go to sleep and think about the real plan tomorrow. haha....good night..