aerial life

I posted so many ridiculous entry lately... imagination overflow...nothing was quite real...Think I should stop...maybe I ought to write a book...hmmmm I am not quite sure how should I started it...my vocabulary is limited and I got poor style of writing...I think its going to be fine as it will never be publish... What will I write about..? I am going to write about a group of agents who called themselves The Invisible Masquerade...They are people that corrected what are wrong in the world. I will tell about a character in the Invisible Masquerade. He was assign to a dark country where the ruler is a cruel man that reign for 100 years...there have been shadow masquerade before that attempt to corrected the country but all have failed....hmmm the world in this book will be different from our world..its not like our modern world and not medieval too...its like the Tanah Melayu...so just imagine the place like that...Ohhh and there will be creatures of the dark and cursed and magic...hmm...

Dear enemy, I know what you are trying to do. I am not as stupid as you think I am. I destroyed people like you long before you ever hated me. I am sorry to say that destroying you is going to be fun. This is a dangerous game you are playing. Let me remind you that I am a master of this game. You should tremble going against me. Why are you doing all this? Haven't you see what I can do? Have you learn nothing? and by the way, stop hiding under that sheep clothing. I could smell your awful odor from far. The mask you are wearing is ridiculous. You do need to brush up on your acting skills. If you had observed what I did before then you could play the same trick. I am happy to tell you that I am anxious for your challenge. I have not using my finest craft yet. This will be the chance for me to full use my skills. ...

lies...you live with lies all your life that the truth hurts you now...lies are all you know...lies lies and lies...you think you can be happy with them but no you wont...at the end of the day you'll be sobbing for the lies you made... The truth...the truth will hurt me...I cant tell the truth now...everything will chides away hearing the truth...they will be afraid of the truth...let me lie for a while... hurt?...aren't you in pain now?...at least you can be yourself with the truth...

I cant bring the lights to you anymore...I am faded...I cant shine your day anymore...I am diminishing..I cant scared the serpents anymore...I am without flame...I am plain...I am weak...You have to fight the darkness alone now...I wish you well...

Red is coming.... I awaited for it for long.. I hope this time it will paint my heart.. I am bored with Grey... Red is bold... Grey is lonely... Red is laughter... Grey is tear...

My heart is the color Grey it sobs and it curse splinters all around it splinter that have been put by people who said they are friends

Learn to forgive...don't keep everything as vengeance...people say that revenge is sweet...but are you really sure about that?....people will stay away from you...you smell bad with vengeance..... You will loose friends and you will feel this hollow inside you....God wont listen to your prayer...nobody will like you anymore...is that what you want....If you really want that then do what you want to......Maybe you like being alone....people that will be around you then will not be your true friends...they'll be there because they are afraid of you....good ridden people like you...I never feel glad being close to this kind of people... If you read this and you hate me so much then leave me or I'll leave you....There is no point being close to some one that are full of vengeance...mark my words little friend,.....if you keep on being like this and then you will be alone...

yup that's the truth....for quite sometimes now every one who think they were my best friend end up hurting themselves...I am sorry but I am just not a best friend materials...I don't know how to be a best friend... I will not just hang out with you...I will not do everything with you...Don't tie me up with all your activities..... Don't sulk when I won't follow you around...hmmmm I am just not that kind of a friend.... I am truly sorry...

A friend said that....that is the last thing I want to be...

I have too much negative vibes....Hmmm Y is this?....I need some one with positive vibes to complete me....its like a battery...it need the negative and positive.......I think....

now... m lonely....padan muka aku...ikut perasaan sangat... xde2....aku kene jaga ego aku....hmmm baiklah mister Ego....mari kite lagi ego hahahahahahaha....sob3x... sunyinye.....

I hated myself...now I'm changing to a new me.Maybe you would not like the new me but I hope I will like the new me. bye bye ignorant..... I hate you. I always let you get your way trough my nerves now I am ditching you. Bye bye bullies... People said I only befriends with people that I can use. Now I'm leaving all the people that I can't use and it includes you. Bye bye useless... now I have no one...now I am back at the beginning...Now I have to work it out to the top...now I need to find my dream...Good bye the old me...

Questions in my mind...its like a puzzle I can't solve.. People said that friendship is base on trust.... Does that mean if I cannot trust a person then he/she is not my friend anymore? Does that mean I have to ditch him/her? I don't like the sound of that...its mean....I have never consider to do that...If I don't like that somebody I usually get out of his/her sight until I am sooth enough to face him/her.....There were times when I did that..and I might do that again...or maybe that is as mean...I just don't know....maybe I am mean.....

The BLOG ...this is my escape from the reality. I might say something that I would never say in the real world. I can say whatever I want in here. Some of the things that I say here are not what I really meant to say. When I am angry,sad,lonely and happy I might say something here that are not my courteous way of speech in the real world. I don't like it when some people copy and then paste it on my friendster. This is my alter ego. Don't mix them with reality, the world that I live on. Now I understand why some blogger don't like it when their friends or relatives found out about their blogs. I feel like shifting to new blog but I don't want to loose the friends that I made in this blog sphere. The world could be so mean sometimes and here I am escaping from it. Let me be free here, don't cage my words of expectant. This is where I can do whatever I want to. Darkheart ...I choose that name for the sole purpose. Its the dark side of my heart that is speaking in here...

Hmmm I failed the road test...I never imagine that I will.....it was usually fine in the training....The JPJ was so serious that it chickened me out....I excel the parking and the hill test...I thought it be easy on the road...Hmmm but this didn't surprise me..I been in bad lucks all my life...Its the way I handled them that make them invisible to my mouring heart....Ohhh I just know what that idiot from Talang going to say..he has such high arrogant and a mouth like a bitch...its gonna be hell just hearing them..Ooohh I should ignored anybody until I retake the test.. I haven't told Miss Dragonfly yet...I know she will try sooth me out but don't think I need that.... The JPJ said if I retake the test again, he will supervised me again..Ohhhh no....I hope its not going to be him...I wish it could be the lady..that young beautiful lady JPJ that I saw...atleast I won't feel nervous..I don't want to see that thick moustache jpj with stern face and always clicking his ...

Don't tell your past to people..just take care on your steps now..plan for every big leaps that you have to take and you'll be fine..hmm that what I should do..I was too stupid that I told the past that I'm not proud off to a person I called friend..and now I'm regeretting every cents of it..he used it againts me from time to time..try to bring me down to the pitt..kick me off my nest..what a fool I am..maybe I should fly and join other flock..it is not fun to fly with this flock anymore..I can't spread my wings here..it felt heavy..What the use of these wings if I can't use it..

I learned that sometimes I have to loose and let time do it's magic....

I need a dream .......some one asked me " what is your dream?" and I can't answer it. I never had a dream before...I usually made it up if some one asked me so that it seem that I'm no different, I have goals in my life....but really I have nothing....I am some one who have nothing to chase..... How do you know what you want in life? How do you know that you want it so bad? Tell me this please....maybe I have dreams that I didn't realize I have...Ohhh if I know what it is...if just I know what it is, I will plan trough it.....I'll crooss any ocean and hike any mountain to achieve it....but what is it?...what is a dream?..... Hmmmm its weird though....people always think that I have high ambition....I am not sure of it myself.....all that I ever done is drifting according to the flow....I just know where to drift and where to stop....I hike the right mountain by chance...I walked the right path by guidance.....all my life I listen and I calculate and I do what ...

hmmmmm atlast after some drama that I played now I get my moonies.....I didn't mean what I said in the previous post......ok maybe a little bit...

N ot funny in my case.....now i need more than a thousand bucks to pay for the fees....and the piggy bank is breeding dust....its so funny, every paycheck i got there will always be somebody to loan a portion of it.......and they never pay back.....now that i need money the most they just acted like they owe me nothing....ohhhh this is how the world revolve.....ok...I can play the stingy man game.....to all the people that owe me, dnt worry I'm not a loan shark that will come and hunt you down like a dog.....but dont you ever ask me anything more after this....Ohhhh i will still regard you as friends but thats it....friends to hang out only....dont come begging anymore......

http://www.verygoldcoast.com.au/destinations/