gambling with life....
It's like buying a lottery ticket. You won't know if you'll win but you're hoping that you will. That's my life now. I keep hoping that I'll change but hoping is just not enough. I need yo get up smell the coffee and do it. Just do it. It seems that I'm not on the wheel. Fate is driving this life and I laid back watching from the passenger seat. I won't go anywhere I wanted to go. I just waited for fate to hold the brake and I get off anywhere it stopped. That's not a good life. No it isn't. No for sure. If I want what I want, then I need to grab the wheel and drives my own life. fate can sit next to me. It can be my co-driver but I should be the driver. I'll drive to destinations I wanted to go and stopped anywhere I wanted. To drive I need to know where I wanted to go. for that I need a plan. I have maps to everywhere but I need to put a pin on where is the best place to go right now. A boy won't need to worry about all this. Just...