aerial life

Oh please let me sleep tonight. I want to be wide awake tomorrow at day. Let me be free of the web entangling me from my duty as a human.

Nights and days pass like normal. It is I who is not normal. Sleeping all days and at nights my eyes are wide awake. If I am a vampire or some sort of a supernatural being then this might be normal. I possess all the human weaknesses and neither of the strengths nor do I have any inhuman power as well. I am just a man who is always grumpy...

Every time I'm in my bed I would hope that tomorrow I'll be a better man. When I wake up... I would be just the same and postponed the change for tomorrow... that night I would regret it and hope to be a better man next morning. Its a never ending cycle for years now...

I can't believe that I would be lost in this age. I used to know who I was and where I wanted to go. I knew what I wanted and how I could achieve my goals... Now, I'm lost... I have to start all over again. Start my life again and I hope I'm in the righteous road. I stumbled on too many obstacles in my journey before that I felt it was easier to lay down and just do nothing. Waiting for whatever may come...

Mungkin terlebih "excited" sampai langsung xtido menunggu waktu nak sahur. Xtau la mcm mane nti kat tmpt koje... rasenye boleh tahan mengantuk nanti tp kesannye bile sampai rumah dri koje mesti ter...diulangi ter-tido sampai la magrib nak berbuka....akan ku cuba untuk tidak terlajak tido... oh mak xbangun lagi....lupe nk kunci kan jam mak td...nak kejut mcm xsampai ati...uhhh tp kalo xkejut lagi la macam salah....nanti la kul 5pagi baru kejut.... tahun2 sebelum ni  mak slalu suh kunci jam pukul 4.30 pagi....awal2 pagi tu macam2 la plak dier masak...sian....penat plak dier nanti...nak tolong masak hmmmm aku masak air bleh laaaaa.... patutnye beli roti semalam...bleh makan ngan kari semalam...sedapppppp kari perangat balik...huhu....mcm over sharing plak aku kali ni....ohhh lantakkan...kenkadang tulis merapu ikut suke ni la yang dapat tenangkan fikiran dan dapat fikir dengan lebih baik...luahan perasaan... update. nampak macam lampu ruang dah terbuka...mak bangun sebelum se...

I been smoking for fifteen years now and I'm sick of it. I tried to quit for quite sometimes now but the habit is hard to kick. I tried vaping two years ago but uhhh the nicotine is not enough to stop smoking. I quit vaping faster than I thought... now I'm trying again but with bigger better vape... The taste of the liquid  is tastier and the clouds of vapour is thicker... hope I could quit smoking this time... ohh the troubled with vaping is the maintenance... need to rebuild and recoiled the atomizer... I'm getting the hand of it now... Hope I would be able to quit smoking this time...

32 years old and single. Oh and according to my colleaques I am the catch... oh and many of them want to match me with their daughters,sisters and cousins. Thay all think that I am the most eligible bachelor but they can't be more wrong than they are now.... I don't have the wealth and I think my health is deteriorate too...