aerial life

I missed this blog. I haven't update it in a very long time. There are comments I didn't reply yet. hmmmmmm i am so sorry bloggers friends. I'll update as soon as I sort all this entanglement that keep me out pf this blog.

I can't even remember the last movie I watched......sigh........I miss hanging out......

Friday, at home in front the laptop. got work to do but I'm feeling lazy now. I want to update the blog but still no ideas. Hmmmm a lot to tell but don't know how to tell them. I stop now. I want to watch Confession Of a Shopaholic. I think I am the male version of a shopaholic. I need to take control of my self. Oh but I don't shop like the girl in that movie. I wasted money on other things. More to gadgets and other men stuffs.... Ohhhhh I thought of writing a very short post. Its longer than the short version I imgined so I have to stop.. bye bye....see you again............

Nothing left... all the colours flew out... flapping their colourful wings and left me with the darkness... all I have is the grey heart.... no life inside.. just echo of cries... hollow....

I'm lost and I'm cold....I need some one to guide me out of this maze...

I have been bitter for quite sometime now but now I realise that what was supposed to be has been.....and now I accepted the fact that she had just made the best choice of her life. she chose not to pretend anymore and laid the truth to me. I just have to accept it. I must not been good enough for her and I have to accept that. I been shooting the love arrows on the blank wall that she put to cover her heart made of hard steel. All the arrows broke just like my heart did.... I have to wake up some day...and I have just did.

semalam dalam terowong kat ipoh ke K.L....bosan..... hari ni, skg kat shah alam.....hmmmm ape tah nak buat ari ni...

sebelum raye...shopping last minute..... raye ke 2...kfc 3 buckets......xlalu makan kueh raye je.....singgah kfc..... raye ke 4....jumpe dragonfly.....nak pegi rumah dier xbg...takut kene pakse kawen cepat hahahah.. di lumut....melawat anak sedare yang sakit...bapak aku suke tengok laut...kalo dtg sini mesti nak pg tgk laut..... tangan nadirah...sian...kene cucuk.... happy sebb uncle kesayangan datang melawat...aku le tuh...peleknye dier senyum....

its 2.12 in the morning...Raya still don't work it's charm on me. I felt nothing like before. All I can think off is time is ticking and I still do not have clear answer from lady dragonfly. Does she wants to live with me for life or am I just a spare tyre if she couldn't hook anyone....hmmmmm she denied my wished to go to her house..she said her parents will force ask to get married if I come. She don't want her brothers to interrogate me but sincerely I'm not scared of all that. I am ready for anything....she's the one with the cold feet...maybe I'm not good enough for her...maybe this is why my raya mood is no where to be found...

I went to the cinema last night and I had a great time...its a bless to escape work sometimes... xramai orang kat shopping complex...parking pun senang....wayang pun banyak kosong...mgkin sebab semua orang takut virus kot...harap2 semalam semua pembawa virus dok rumah xkuar merebakkan kesakitan...oh oh betoi ke virus xaktif kat tempat sejuk?...mgkin dier layan tido kot kt tmpat sejuk....... Its been long since I tasted these mouth watering doughnuts....I ate all of them by myself........ The last doughnut..... and I got what I been looking for....although its not in good condition...I have to grab it...its hard to find.... my favourite reading spot...in the garage...(not a real garage)

Its only half a journey today....we decided to have a sleepover at my brothers' house in Shah Alam Section 17....he got the Celcom broadband but I had to wait till they sleep before I got the chance to use it....now I got the chance Muahahahaaha(evil laugh). oh oh I didn't have the chance to stop at mre than one R&R...if I drove alone then I sure had stop 3 or 5 times....just for the fun of it....we only stopped at tapah....atleast there were waffles and coffee...Its a 3 hours drive and I did manage to stay awake...evening is my usual time in slumber land....that's why I don't like to drive in long journey...bus and train are my usual choice....because I can sleep in it....I can sleep in any kind of moving vehicles....i even slept on a motorcycle once...but like you could had guessed..it end up with the road as a mattress....I fell.... I'm sleepy now...still have a long way to go tomorrow...better take my rest.....

My biggest weakness is the ability to remember the route and places I been. I always got lost no matter anywhere. I remembered I was lost in Komtar. Its not that big of place but I can't find the way out for a long time until I bumped to someone I knew and followed her out. Yup.. even in small place like komtar. I lived in Penang for three years before and I still get lost till now. I did my internship in SK Wellesly for three months and after the three months I got to take something from the school...guess what?...I don't know the way.......don't need to talk about Penang. I got lost in Ipoh so many times too. The only way I know is to go to Jusco. Imagined that...I been to Ipoh hundreds of time and I still can't remember the route. So, its really rare for me to go somewhere far alone. This might be the complication from too much sleep....sleeping is one of my hobbies.

Stop! stop! It's not cool pathetic, pathetic. Don't try to look cool you end up being pathetic.

bile aku xangkat kol dan balas msg kamu...kamu kate aku sombong,belagak...bile aku layan je kol dan msg kamu..kamu kate aku bg harapan..bile aku xterime kamu..kamu cerita kat semua org kate aku maenkan perasaan kamu la..tipu kamu la..gunakan kamu la...xpaham la aku dengan kamu ni...ok...semua tu kawan2 kamu...kamu nak burukkan aku kat mereka pun aku xkesah...bukan aku kenai sgt pun mereka...aku rase kamu ade masalah mental la...ape tah salah aku kat kamu...aku xpnah pun cakap I love U ke ape ke...aku xpnh pun kate jom kite kawen...aku xpnh pun suruh tunggu aku sampei bertahun tahun..aku xmintak pun kamu bekorban utk aku..xpnah lak aku amek kesempatan kat kamu...pegang tangan kamu pun xpnah...ehhh jumpe kamu pun 10 tahun dulu pastu tahun lepa baru terjumpe balik...lamenye kamu tgu aku...ke kamu saje nak nyasahkan aku...reka sume cite2 bohong je.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmm pompuan pompuan...misteri sungguh....xpaham aku....nasib baek la bukan semua pompuan cam ni...

I have too much negative vibes....Hmmm Y is this?....I need some one with positive vibes to complete me....its like a battery...it need the negative and positive.......I think....