aerial life

A friend posted on her facebook wall " am I  philophobic n gamophobic???....I searched for the meaning using uncle Google....found the meaning in the urban dictionary.... "philophobic =  philophobia n (Greek philia, love + phobia, fear) - a persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of love and intimacy, of deep relationship with smbd.  " "gamophobic = t o have an irrational fear of marriage 'he couldn't marry her,because he was severly gamophobic" Hey..!! I think I have the phobics too.... Since the last post till now, I met four fantastic ladies( not in the same time). I like them but when things got almost serious, I ran... I was afraid if things got too serious that they wanted to settle down. I was not ready and still not ready. The idea of marriage scared me. The responsible that a man carries as a husband is too big. I'm just not ready to carry that burden on my shoulder yet. I like the way I am now. Free. Free to do anything I like.....

Some one told me before that those lights you switch on to bright the dark night need positive and negative cell to work. Hmmm something like that...I don't really remember the exact words but almost like that... I created this blog last year and hidden it from the world...I dump all my anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness and all the negative thoughts in the blog. It was the way I channeled all the negative aura out of the system. Then, I opened the blog to public. I changed the layout and deleted all the things that might offended anybody. I imported things from my older blog here and try to be more open. I got some followers and even cared for what they would think after reading any of the entries I posted in the blog. I toned down my voice and wrote things that were not important to me or anybody. There was like a boundary that stopped me from writing what I really wanted to write......I lost the plank to sunk the nails....the hammer and nails were kept in the closet an...