aerial life

I tend to forgive and forget. Sometimes I forgive before I forget. Usually I forgot what I have forgiven. Seldom forgive to forget. Rarely have to forget to forgive. Never I forgoten to forgive.

I thought she was the one. I really did. I believed it and it became hope. I stayed loyal far too long. I was wrong. I should have known better. I don't blame her, not for my own foolishness. She was not at fault at all. It was I who was not bright enough to understand. The time I reallised it, I was crushed like glass to stone. Shattered into pieces. I should not cling to this cloud, It's too cold here. It is dark and gloomy. It rains all the time but there is no sunshine to make a rainbow. No rainbow....no rainbow here..hmmm what the use of a rainbow...its only the arch of colours....it could make me happy but for a while...only for a while....I should be looking for the sun..Ohhhh yes the sun...then I wont feel this cold anymore....Sun....where are you???....I saw stars before...they glitters at me....maybe one of the stars is the sun that I need...fool....what a fool for me to ignore them before.....There is not only one son...the stars I saw could be the sun that could hea...

If you ask me what I think of you...you'll be sad. I think you are delusional. You think people talk about you in your back. I got news for you my dear pathetic friend. We don't care that much bout you. I used to pity you. That was my biggest mistake ever. I should just let you be. Maybe you were happier that way. Now you are getting on my nerves. If you want to bad mouth me, don't do it in this park. I been here longer than you. even the trees know me. Hmm I'll do you a favor. I hope you'll be happy with it. I'll let you reign in this park. let me go find new place. You can build a circus now. you can recruit clowns, fire-eater, singing dogs, and all those that can entertain you... Good luck.. or should I say 'Good riddance'

Stop! stop! It's not cool pathetic, pathetic. Don't try to look cool you end up being pathetic.

people wear shields to protect their heart from getting hurt...they wear it valiantly and proudly to hide what is inside...they are some that are colorful, some have it in grey and some in blacks...usually they all look strong and well build with various shapes..but I have a fortress...made of gold and various gems...colorful and inviting...shimmering to the eyes...make you want to touch it over and over again...feel the smoothness of the wall...pretty gems mesmerizing the eyes...made you wonder what is inside..... Inside... foul thing dark as the night...serpents slithering around with hisses without stop...this fortress is not to keep what outside from coming in but to cage the wretched things inside from getting out...don't sneak in or you'll be swallow in the realm of darkness...

lies...you live with lies all your life that the truth hurts you now...lies are all you know...lies lies and lies...you think you can be happy with them but no you wont...at the end of the day you'll be sobbing for the lies you made... The truth...the truth will hurt me...I cant tell the truth now...everything will chides away hearing the truth...they will be afraid of the truth...let me lie for a while... hurt?...aren't you in pain now?...at least you can be yourself with the truth...

I cant bring the lights to you anymore...I am faded...I cant shine your day anymore...I am diminishing..I cant scared the serpents anymore...I am without flame...I am plain...I am weak...You have to fight the darkness alone now...I wish you well...

Red is coming.... I awaited for it for long.. I hope this time it will paint my heart.. I am bored with Grey... Red is bold... Grey is lonely... Red is laughter... Grey is tear...

a gift of loves....a friend gave me this picture.She said the fruits are cherries.malaysia cherries or berries....i don't know wat they are actually hehehe...I just like the picture...Thank you Yun Yun....

Dear.....,,,, if i told you i love u what would u say? would u love me back? would u turn away? if i told u that it is for u i care would u treat me fair? what would u do? if i told u that it is u i want to embrace how would u reply? would u say it to my face? if i told u that u my greatest ambition would u wildly grin? would that raise u suspicious? if i told u that my life is yours to take would u hold it dear? or would u let it break? if i told u that my love is a book would u take time to read it? would u not even look? if i told u that without u i will die would u save my life? would u say goodbye? if i told u that it's u i adore would u tell me to go on? would u ask for more? if i told u that u is whom i want to be would u hold me in your arms? for all eternity?? Written by , Ms green

When I was young I was complicated, ignorance gasp upon my heart, I wanted everything a grown up have, my eyes look upon things on the surface, beauty was only a mirage, a reflection of what I wanted to see. Experience teaches, teaches me to take things slow, enjoy the scenery, enjoy life, learn from mistakes, listen to the whisper of the wind, to listen I have to be quiet, i was loud and i was deaf, I was blinded by colours around me, mesmerized by them without knowing the meaning behind. now in this wretched time, everything become clear, how beauty should be look, how advice should be listen, how patient is a virtue, all inside this tiny box of life, waiting for love to carry me thorough my life, for eternity.

I try the colour white, eyes everywhere feel sooth, Mouths whisper of how gorgeous i look, in the mirror..i could see how wrong the colour with me.. I am pitch black.. that is my colour... I fake myself with white but the heart knows the truth... I am dark... dark as night with out moon.. This piece of cloth on my skin.. is getting pale... its going to reveal me the whole me... When that time comes... I'll be running... into the sea of sadness.. let her swallow me..I'll be in the depth.. all alone again.. * The picture of the doves were taken from yahoo search engine....it must belong to some1...but I don't remember who..to that some1...sorry i did not gives any credits to you...if I know who you are then i will... ** found the web site.. http://insel.tabulas.com/2006/07/09/@1240710/

The door is still wide open... The door is just straight ahead of me... I could see how strong and handsome it stand there... waiting for me to go trough it... I'm walking to it... I'm running towards it... but still I can't reach it... I can't reach it,I can't reach to the door... The door is closing... I am scared... i am lifeless... My feet getting weaker... will I reached the door in time... Will I get trough it... Ohh God, give me the power... The power to get trough all this...

love,love,....love, I'm looking for love,passion, love of doing something,doing something that I love, I want to love my job, love my routine,love my life, love everything about this life, love everything around me, so my life would not be this hollow, would not be this lonely, it will be filled with laughter, smile and joy.and love,love,love,love,love **** ohhh sorry i donno where i got the pic.....but i love this pic...

Time and tide wait for no one... i feel like 24hours a day n 7days a week just not enough for me...So much things to do and so little time given...when everything collide together nothing can be done...in the end nothing is done as what expected...everything just go wrong...No one to be blame except I who did not manage it right.. i have become the slave of time...I must learn to take control , I must be the master who control my time... I must fight this ignorance of fate bestowed on me...I must look what inside this fate not curse everything that happen...I am bliss that I saw whats wrong now what I must do is to ride it like it was meant to be my ride...ride it like how it meant to be...This is my conscience talking...it is about time that I listen...