I need a dream....

I need a dream.......some one asked me " what is your dream?" and I can't answer it.

I never had a dream before...I usually made it up if some one asked me so that it seem that I'm no different, I have goals in my life....but really I have nothing....I am some one who have nothing to chase.....

How do you know what you want in life?

How do you know that you want it so bad?

Tell me this please....maybe I have dreams that I didn't realize I have...Ohhh if I know what it is...if just I know what it is, I will plan trough it.....I'll crooss any ocean and hike any mountain to achieve it....but what is it?...what is a dream?.....

Hmmmm its weird though....people always think that I have high ambition....I am not sure of it myself.....all that I ever done is drifting according to the flow....I just know where to drift and where to stop....I hike the right mountain by chance...I walked the right path by guidance.....all my life I listen and I calculate and I do what is right for me.....

I am a teacher now...and I always tell my students to follow their dreams....I made them have dreams....I show them what to dream about....but I....I have none of that myself......I became a teacher because of my parents....my mother wanted to be a teacher herself when she was young....she almost became a teacher if not because of the poverty they lived before.....she made me a teacher.....I live on her dream.....She is so happy of what I achived.... I achived lots of things in a short time.....people are suprise too....then again, is this what I always wanted?....I don't know because I have no dream....

don't get me wrong, I like doing what I do now....I know it's a holly thing to do.....but sometimes it made me wonder of what else I could be doing other than teaching....can I be a lawyer?...a doctor?..a postman?...or perhaps an engineer?......or maybe an architect?...or maybe I'm fit to be a wrestler...hahahah.....

even though I didn't have a dream.....but I do know planning is important...everything I do is well planned....and that made me a boring person.....I tried being wild once in while...and then I won't like it.........I felt its wrong even though nobody said anything about it.....last Sunday I dyed my hair brown...I did it without thinking first....it looked nice enough and shockingly nobody disagreed on it, I didn't get in trouble with it....the teachers said nothing...even the Headmistress and the Nazir that came to school....I could just let it stayed like that but I didn't......I cut it short.....almost shaved it.....nobody asked me too but i just felt stupid...huhuhuhu...maybe thats it....I'm just plain dumb....

hmmmm I'll upload the pictures with the stupid dead fox on my head next time......Its time to sleep now......and dream....

maybe then I can sing this....

I have a dream, a song to sing

To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I Have A Dream lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/English/10022-I-Have-A-Dream~Westlife.html
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream