aerial life

This 2013 and I didn't anything all thos while... the years past by witm being idle. Its like I'm in a comma and half my braincells are dead now. I don't have anything to write about but all the mistakes and problems I encountered all this past year. I don'tthink kts right... there should have been good things too but for me not to highlight them mean that I am a negative person. I don't like being negative... I don't like the situation I am in now...for that I have to take action... I want to write all the good things happen to me no matter how small it is so that it would remind me that I should be thankful of what I have... I know there won't be readers in this blog anymore and that actually something to glad about as now I am free from writing to satisfy anyone and its actually freedom to me...

Its august and this is my first post this year. I've been slacking off for far too long. a very very long time. Its like I'm a new blogger all over again. The first time I blog was because I want to express myself because I can't in the real world. I have always been kind of a reserve kid. I keep everything to myself. My frustration, my joy my sadness and all those feelings that I can't describe. I can write anything in here, at least that was what I thought. Then when there were followers and comments, I started to be that reserve kid again. I don't really write what I feel and after a few moments, I just don't write anymore. That is a mistake. I won't care anymore and will write anything I wanted to. Ohh and I just did.

I can play the game better than you. If you think you can kick me out from the game than you are dead wrong. I have my way to get to you. You might have the experience and the power but I have the determination to survive this war. By hooked or more likely by crooked like you are, I'll get you...

This post is not about the  habit  of smoking or how to kick anybody. As you can see in the picture, the spelling of habit is wrongly spelled as "habbit". That is one of my bad habit. I  seldom  check my spelling or grammar when I write anything. I know that I won't even checked the spelling or grammar I'm writing right now. My fingers are dancing on the keyboard of my laptop like salsa and I don't even bother to read back what I wrote. Another 1 of my bad habit is that I rarely read any terms and conditions in any competition or  anything  that usually have that small writing that usually are important. I regret when its too late. The lesson here is don't be as lazy as I am. I am lazy to continue this post now so I'm going to stop the crap I'm doing now. Forgive me If I have wasted your precious time.

Years ago I said I want to change. Yet I am still the same. I forgot every wishes and resolution when luck is by my side. Now that luck has runs out, bad things fall upon me like rain after a long hot dry drought. No where to run anymore. Have to face them head on. Like a charging hornless bull. It is going to hurt badly. Very badly. It is the consequences I have to take. I cannot blame it on others even if I wanted to.

No matter who you are, there will always be problems. You might think you have the biggest problem in the world but it's just not true. There is always people with bigger problem than you and that person can handle the problem better than you. The biggest problem appear when you deny you have a problem. You need to accept the reality that you have a problem before you can handle any problem. Denial won't get you anywhere. If you can't accept that you have problem, than you can,t handle the problem.

I'm at the edge of my patient. I have the urge to jump from this stage of torture to the stage of insanity. Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone