aerial life

findin fault...

2011-12-27T03:14:00.000+08:00

I can play the game better than you. If you think you can kick me out from the game than you are dead wrong. I have my way to get to you. You might have the experience and the power but I have the determination to survive this war. By hooked or more likely by crooked like you are, I'll get you...

Kick The Habit!!!

2011-12-14T04:26:00.004+08:00

This post is not about the habit of smoking or how to kick anybody. As you can see in the picture, the spelling of habit is wrongly spelled as "habbit". That is one of my bad habit. I seldom check my spelling or grammar when I write anything. I know that I won't even checked the spelling or grammar I'm writing right now. My fingers are dancing on the keyboard of my laptop like salsa and I don't even bother to read back what I wrote. Another 1 of my bad habit is that I rarely read any terms and conditions in any competition or anything that usually have that small writing that usually are important. I regret when its too late. The lesson here is don't be as lazy as I am. I am lazy to continue this post now so I'm going to stop the crap I'm doing now. Forgive me If I have wasted your precious time.

Just the same me.

2011-07-27T02:28:00.000+08:00

Years ago I said I want to change.
Yet I am still the same.

I forgot every wishes and resolution when luck is by my side. Now that luck has runs out, bad things fall upon me like rain after a long hot dry drought.

No where to run anymore. Have to face them head on. Like a charging hornless bull. It is going to hurt badly. Very badly. It is the consequences I have to take. I cannot blame it on others even if I wanted to.

There will always be problems...

2011-07-12T02:25:00.002+08:00

No matter who you are, there will always be problems. You might think you have the biggest problem in the world but it's just not true. There is always people with bigger problem than you and that person can handle the problem better than you. The biggest problem appear when you deny you have a problem. You need to accept the reality that you have a problem before you can handle any problem. Denial won't get you anywhere. If you can't accept that you have problem, than you can,t handle the problem.

At the edge.

2011-05-25T01:59:00.000+08:00

I'm at the edge of my patient. I have the urge to jump from this stage of torture to the stage of insanity.
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Printer berjasa

2011-05-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

Printer ni sangat berjasa. Kalo printer ni makhluk, banyak dah pahala. Semua lembaran kerja hasil dari cetakan printer ni.
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Mr.Lazy

2011-05-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

There were times where I thought I could murdered you. Laid you in a coffin, buried you 6 feet under.

I can't. It just feel good to be lazy sometimes.
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If.

2011-05-03T00:48:00.003+08:00

If I am evil. I would say," If you can't fight them, join them then find their weaknesses and destroy them".
But, because I'm not evil. I wouldn't do those things I imagined I could do.
To think that I had those evil thought. Would that already made me evil?
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Batteries for Yashica MG-1

2011-04-26T00:36:00.003+08:00

Using old cameras have their weaknesses. It is hard to find the batteries that suited them. This is how I improvised with my Yashica. I found this solution from youtube. I don't remember who posted the video but thanked to the uploader I can use my Yashica now. I want to share with you so that you can use your Yashica MG-1 too. They might be other ways but this is the method I used.

This is the battery for the Yashica MG-1. The HM-4N. Mercury battery. You can't find this 5.6v battery anymore.

You have to use two batteries instead. The 123 size and the A76. They are 3v and 1.5v respectively. The Volt would be 4.5v now but it is enough for the camera.

Make sure the negative side is put in first for the 123 and then the A76 negative side on the positive side of the 123.

I put a spring from and old small flashlight to ensure the batteries doesn't moved inside the battery tube. You don't have to do this if you don't want to. they will still work.

p/s. was thinking of making a video but I was too shy. haha.

My new old baby...

2011-04-18T01:13:00.001+08:00

It was love at first sight. I saw her on the shelf of a very old camera shop. I knew it right away that it was meant for me. The chrome body shone like a halo from an angel and captivated me. I was bedazzled and all I wanted was to hold it in my hands.....Ok enough is enough..hahaha..

Now that it is mine, I need to learn how to use it well. Still am excited....uhhhh Yashica....I can't wait to see the product of our love affair....hahahahah....Ohhh I know it wont be good the first time..but I hope they will be something to look at..hahaha...

The black mist blocked my view.

2011-04-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

Its been more than a year in this new work place and I still don't feel the bond with this place. I was hoping for a new beginning when I posted to this new place. A new and better story in my life where I can be proud off. The first chapter of this book started negatively. The first page was written with negatives thoughts and bad experienced. The second chapter was not better than the first and the third continuously to the twelve was increasingly in negative ways. Now the 16th chapter and I wonder how this would end. I got all the plan to a better life but the future is cloudy. I can't predict anything. I have to stand up for my rights but in order to do that I need to buff up so that I can defend myself from any attack. The conclusion is that to change the world I need to change myself first.

200 years old mood.

2011-02-21T13:36:00.000+08:00

Today I am 200 years old. Senile, grumpy and moody.
Don't feel excited about anything. I done them all.
I just want to sit on a comfortable rocking chair and look at all those foolish teens doing foolish things.
I need my coffee. A black bitter coffee. I don't care for sweet things anymore.
rig rag rig rag rig rag.....the racketing sound of the chair is music.
this day will pass too....just like the other days in my 200 years of living.

dreaming is wonderful...

2010-12-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

Everyone dreams....I dream everyday..not just with my eyes shut close..all the time...

I dream to have a better life..I dream to be a better me..I dream of the unimaginable things....but a dream is just a dream if I don't do anything about it....just like 'angan-angan mat jenin'......

philophobic n gamophobic???

2010-12-03T16:33:00.002+08:00

A friend posted on her facebook wall " am I philophobic n gamophobic???....I searched for the meaning using uncle Google....found the meaning in the urban dictionary....

"philophobic = philophobia n (Greek philia, love + phobia, fear) - a persistent, abnormal, and irrational fear of love and intimacy, of deep relationship with smbd. "

"gamophobic = to have an irrational fear of marriage

'he couldn't marry her,because he was severly gamophobic"

Hey..!! I think I have the phobics too.... Since the last post till now, I met four fantastic ladies( not in the same time). I like them but when things got almost serious, I ran... I was afraid if things got too serious that they wanted to settle down. I was not ready and still not ready.

The idea of marriage scared me. The responsible that a man carries as a husband is too big. I'm just not ready to carry that burden on my shoulder yet. I like the way I am now. Free. Free to do anything I like....but,,...sometimes it does get lonely....but to think of the responsible Ohhhh I rather feel lonely for a while.... I have few friends who had trouble in the marriage. one of them is divorced now and the trouble still stick with him. He got to go to court for the feud in taking care of his child....Ohhh these are all reasons just stupid reasons for me to avoid marriage but...sincerely I don't feel like ending my bachelor life yet....

Ohhh i don't feel like writing anymore...... better stop now before I shit more craps here....haha

merepek lame xmerepek...

2010-10-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

Semua orang adalah orang biase je....jalan yg dipilih dan risiko yg diambil yg membezakan....jadi kamu pun bleh jadi mcm orang2 yg kamu anggap hebat tu....

iftar

2010-09-06T19:41:00.001+08:00

iftar at Cheng Ho

Aku ingat iftar tu memule stand for ape2..cam I.F.T.A.R....ropenye mksudnye bokak pose je le..hahaha sampei aku google kt wiki baru aku tau...huhu lembabnye......skg dah tau bru leh gune pekataan tu...huhu

iftar at seoul garden....terbaek wooooo......

gambling with life....

2010-08-23T02:39:00.003+08:00

It's like buying a lottery ticket. You won't know if you'll win but you're hoping that you will. That's my life now. I keep hoping that I'll change but hoping is just not enough. I need yo get up smell the coffee and do it. Just do it.

It seems that I'm not on the wheel. Fate is driving this life and I laid back watching from the passenger seat. I won't go anywhere I wanted to go. I just waited for fate to hold the brake and I get off anywhere it stopped. That's not a good life. No it isn't. No for sure.

If I want what I want, then I need to grab the wheel and drives my own life. fate can sit next to me. It can be my co-driver but I should be the driver. I'll drive to destinations I wanted to go and stopped anywhere I wanted. To drive I need to know where I wanted to go. for that I need a plan. I have maps to everywhere but I need to put a pin on where is the best place to go right now.

A boy won't need to worry about all this. Just shown that I'm no boy anymore. I'm an adult with the license to drive my own destiny. And drive I will. It gonna be a slow ride for now but once I got the hang of this wheel then I'm going to speed up. no roadblocks can stop me. Ohhh but need to watch out for the speed traps.

Must make sure the engine is in its best condition.

Oh so the best plan I have now is to go to sleep and think about the real plan tomorrow. haha....good night..

life is unpredictable...

2010-08-16T03:16:00.001+08:00

You may think nothing can go wrong. life's unpredictable....everything you got can be taken away just like that....all the things you're proud off can be your destruction.....so,hey! don't brag too much....be thankful of what you have and don't be mean to others.....

agreed disagreed or in the middle....whatever..!!!!

2010-08-15T05:51:00.003+08:00

" Hak guru Lebih Agung dari hak IBU BAPA, sebab orang tua penyebab adanya kita sekarang & kehidupan yang fana. Smentera GURU, penyebab hidup yang KEKAL. Sekiranya tidak ada guru, nescaya apa yang dihasilkan & diarahkan oleh orang tua akan celaka selamanya~~~Imam Al-Ghazali~~~

I do not know if the quote that I cite above is really from Imam Al-Ghazali. I read it somewhere from the wall of someone's facebook. is it right or not that's another story but is it true or not?...well, recently i watched a video that trigger a lot of questions and reactions. Let's watch it together...here it is...

as a teacher, I do not agreed with what the teacher did too. I think he was provoking the student to act that way. Why didn't he just let go for a while. consult the student later. The student was angry and cant think straight. He should let the boy cool down first. I guess he was the discipline teacher of that school. He had to look strict and mean or he would loose respect from other students and the discipline of the school going to get worst. hmmmm you know what I really think?...I think that this video was a set up. maybe the student had issues all along and the teachers just don't have evidents. So, they recorded it and now they got proved.ohhh i just don't know what to say....I was just speculating. I don't agreed with the teacher or the student. Both of them. anyway, the video showed that students don't respect teachers anymore. I never seen any student talk back that way to his teacher. in my school days we never talk back to the teachers even when we don't like the teachers. ohhhh I been idle for too long that I don't know what I'm writing...i just don't have the words to express what I'm thinking right now.....so, what about you leave comments in my comments box and tell me what do you think?.....

selamat berpuasa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-11T05:42:00.000+08:00

The 1st sahur of the month.....I eat like there is no tomorrow. with cigarette on my lips I hope this Ramadhan would mean more than just the act of holding my mouth from food. It's easy not to eat on the day but Ramadhan means more than that. I hope to become a better person after the Ramadhan.

tired....but keep smiling .....

2010-08-06T00:28:00.000+08:00

people in the school are worrying....I'm smiling all day long....It started last Tuesday....Got tonnes of work but I'm happy....haha...not happy of the workload...happy bout other things....

Just came back from a meeting... exhausted....but I'm smiling....don't wanna tell you why....but I'm smiling... a bird can shit on my head now and I'll still be smiling.....

I want to write longer post but too sleepy......good night....ZZZZZzzz :) ...ZZzzz :) ZZzzzz :) ........ZZzzz ;p...ZZzz :). haha

photo.....cheap weh...

2010-08-04T10:06:00.000+08:00

Bought some photo's yesterday....they were cheap but they are nice enough to be hang on my wall. Hmm I want to hang my own stuffs after this...need to get out more and shoot that DSLR.....

Today...

2010-08-03T22:08:00.002+08:00

Today I met a girl.
Radiant like the sun and soothing like the night...

perfect life??..how do your measure that perfectness??

2010-07-15T01:26:00.000+08:00

What is a perfect life?...I wanted a perfect life and by perfect I interpreted it wrongly. I wanted fortune and wealth. Spend on anything I wanted on. I wanted time. Travel anywhere and anytime I wanted to. I wanted happiness. Friends all around me and family and girls drooling after me. haha... its a nice dream. perfect is just a dream. It is not life when it's perfect. It's a dream. dreaming is wrong when you dream of something you can never achieved.

building a pc.

2010-06-28T03:58:00.005+08:00

m building another pc. The old pc is too old. I bought it on my 1st year of working. That was 6 years ago. It runs on pentium 4. It's dat old.

I watched youtube on how to assemble the parts and it looked easy. It will be my experiment. I bought the casing yesterday and I am thrill to build it. I'm just using the old stuffs I have now. I have with me 2 old motherboards, 3 graphic cards, 1 old hard drive(hope it can still be used),2 pieces of 512 rams which I cant use anymore, 2 optical drives and an intel processor pentium D that I got from a friend. Yes,yes I know nobody uses pentium D anymore. Like I told you, this is just an experiment. Once this 1 works then I'll upgrade to a newer version of processor. I didn't buy most of the things now. Hmm where can I get ddr2 rams for free?.. It'll be a waste if i buy them. As am just gonna use them temporarily.

Queen

2010-06-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

Words and music by freddie mercury and john deacon

Another red letter day
So the pound has dropped and the children are creating
The other half ran away
Taking all the cash and leaving you with the lumber
Got a pain in the chest
Doctors on strike what you need is a rest

Its not easy love but youve got friends you can trust
Friends will be friends
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Friends will be friends
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hands cos friends will be friends right till the
End

Now it's a beautiful day
The postman delivered a letter from your lover
Only a phone call away
You tried to track him down but somebody stole his number
As a matter of fact
Youre getting used to life without him in your way

Its so easy love cos you got friends you can trust
Friends will be friends
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Friends will be friends
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hands cos friends will be friends right till the
End

Its so easy love cos you got friends you can trust
Friends will be friends
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Friends will be friends
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hands cos friends will be friends right till the
End

Friends will be friends
When you're in need of love they give you care and attention
Friends will be friends
When you're through with life and all hope is lost
Hold out your hands cos right till the end-
Friends will be friends

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/q/queen/#share

Hi...

2010-06-25T03:04:00.003+08:00

Hi friends....I created a new blog. Just for photography. It is not ready yet. if you care to drop by then come and visit http://silverleaf-silver.blogspot.com

Ohhhh with the new blog around, it doesn't mean that I'm closing this blog. This here is my heart. I can't leave it......

lame gile babeng..!!!!

2010-06-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

lame gile xberblog!!!! aimok!! rindu rasenye.....tapi xde idea nk tulih skg....hmmmmmm nanti2......

疲れた

2010-04-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

私はもう自分の仕事を好きではない。私は子供を教えるですが、私はすべての事務作業を行うには好きではない。彼らは非常に多くのレポートと割り当てています。私は教育省は、実際に学校の条件を知らないと思う。彼らが知っていれば、彼らはヘルパーのすべての論文では、仕事を洞で私たちが送信されます私は日本の文章で書くなぜ私に依頼しないでください。私は試してみたい。

一家の厄介者

2010-04-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

私は兄弟がいる。彼は麻薬中毒です。彼は私のお金を盗んだとの距離クアラルンプールを実行します。彼は彼と私のバイクを取った。私は彼と一緒に行うにはわからない。彼は他の悪いことを盗んで警察に逮捕されていた。私は恐れて、彼は別の罪を自分のバイクを使って行うとしている午前彼は私に恥をもたらすでしょう。私はこの文章を読んで私の友達をしたくないので、私は日本語の文章で書いています。夜今のところ良好です。私は常に私は、悲しみと怒り不安を感じて書いてください。

negative and positive...

2010-04-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

Some one told me before that those lights you switch on to bright the dark night need positive and negative cell to work. Hmmm something like that...I don't really remember the exact words but almost like that...

I created this blog last year and hidden it from the world...I dump all my anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness and all the negative thoughts in the blog. It was the way I channeled all the negative aura out of the system. Then, I opened the blog to public. I changed the layout and deleted all the things that might offended anybody. I imported things from my older blog here and try to be more open. I got some followers and even cared for what they would think after reading any of the entries I posted in the blog. I toned down my voice and wrote things that were not important to me or anybody. There was like a boundary that stopped me from writing what I really wanted to write......I lost the plank to sunk the nails....the hammer and nails were kept in the closet and the negative aura became like a boil waiting to explode....

These past few months were not so good. I wanted to express them here but the boundary shifted into a thick wall....very hard to get through....some of the arrows did made it into the posts but those were just a tiny speck of what I really wanted to write.....Writing in the blog was a pleasure...now it became nothing....I don't know why I write in the blog anymore. It lost it's purpose.....

If you had been my blog lately, you can see how negative I had been about everything....there were actually two sides of every story but I chose to write the negative side here and live the positive side....and I enjoyed the positive ones so much that I don't care to write them in the blog...but when I was depressed, I need the blog to expressed it..

I am sorry if the negative vibe gets to you.... I hope it didn't...

sinking.

2010-04-02T01:04:00.000+08:00

the last five years, I been a slave to work. There were too many things to do and the time seem so short but I managed to settled everything and I was amazed myself. This year I got less work but i don't know what is wrong that I feel that time is still short. the work now is not as much as what I got last year but time is still so short in a day. My time management is terrible. I felt like I'm inside a quick sand and it would drowned me any time now.....I'm going to sleep now and wake up in a better tomorrow...

Still can eat fat food....

2010-03-30T01:48:00.002+08:00

Calculated my BMI after being guilty of eating burger late at night.......Ohhhhh at the end of the normal scale...still normal but going to the other line any time from now.... It's not about being fat that I care about. It's not the look that I concerned. It;s all about the health. Facts show that fat people are prone to disease such as heart problem, diabetes and other things too....I'm not saying that thin people are invincible from the disease and problems. Ohhh I don't need to babble here about all the facts and myth...If you can use the internet to read this post then you must have the knowledge to google it yourselves about health and so on....go ahead..!!.. look it up,...Its good to know about your own body.....

...** I calculated my BMI here..
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/bmi-calculator/NU00597

you can also do it here....

http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bminojs.htm

or here.....

http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bmi-m.htm

bertuah....

2010-03-28T02:31:00.003+08:00

I got a hamper in the lucky draw of the PIBG meeting. The hamper was not big and expensive but I was happy because it had been so long since I won anything.

The first time I won something was when I was in standard two. I won this 'saguhati' prize from a magazine. It was just a notebook. A plain stupid notebook that looked cheap and not interesting. The second time was when i was still in college. A lucky draw after an event. I had never been so lucky in my life. Usually i don't get anything from any contest. When I was in secondary school, I entered hundreds of contests and I never won any of them. Oh oh recently I entered the perodua contest. Not really like a contest. Just fill in a form and give it at the counter. Only the customer who paid more than RM200 can enter the contest. I didn't put hope in it but when the girl at the counter said "good luck" on the contest, I was like thrill!!...I don't know why but it felt good when somebody wish you something good......Oh oh If by any chance I win this contest, I'll ask her out for dinner....haha.....

This is the prize if I win the contest....an Alza.... hey, wish me luck okay!!!!!!!....I just like it when people wish me luck....even if I didn't have the chance to win...hihihi

Congratulation sis!!!

2010-03-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

I went to KL for my elder sister convocation.....I dunno how can she works and still gets her master...She is very strong...maybe one day I'll would be able to do the same....hope that the 'one day' is not so far ahead......oh yes, I blurred the picture on purpose.... My sister won't approved of putting her picture on the net...

I need to save up!!!!!

2010-03-24T10:31:00.006+08:00

I have to admit. It's dreadful just to admit it... I am a heavy smoker.....I know it's bad for health... not just health...Its bad for my pocket to....hmmm I didn't stated any resolution for this year....well I say this is a good time to state it..... My resolution for this year is to stop smoking....by the end of this year, no more poison will enter my lung......oh oh....people told me not to stop instantly..It's bad for health...the body will be shocked....

another half of the tag....

2010-03-23T21:27:00.001+08:00

Time t pay the debt of the tag....here are the other half of ten things you should know about me....well not that I assume anyone has interest in reading about me....but it's a tag...and a tag is a tag....

6. I live with my parents....the only time I had been parted with them was the years in college. That was three years. Three wild years. The Three years I learned about life and people.

7. I never studied hard in my life. I don't know how or maybe I was just plain lazy. My UPSR, PMR, SPM results were all average. Just good enough for me not to hide them from my parents. hahahaha.... When I was in college, the laziness continued but at the end of the year, I changed.....I was quite proud of my CGPA...not that kind of proud that I want to tell everybody I meet what I got but proud enough to smile.....

8. I did not always want to be a teacher....I did not know what I want to do when I was in school...I had no ambition....maybe that's why I don't have the motivation to study before...When I was in college... I fell in love with the teaching profession..... I know I want to be a teacher.....I love being a teacher... maybe sometimes I complain about this and that....but I still love teaching.......

9. I have no girlfriend right now... I just don't know how to find one... people keep asking me when would I get married... well, I don't know how to answer that too......

10. I don't like rude people....I always try to be polite with anyone I met...rude people makes me angry.....

Ohhh...that's the end of this tag... I should tag any readers or any friends of this blog but I don't think they would read this.... I haven't been active in blogging lately.... I rarely leaves comment in anyone blogs lately and I think it severe the bond....I'm so sorry....I just don't have enough time lately.........

tagged by aimee...

2010-03-22T01:55:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by aimee..I have to write 10 things about me..at 1st, I wanted to answer the tag tomorrow but I just cant get some shut eyes yet.. I'm doing this post via phone so I'm sorry if I didn't link anything here..hmm let see, what should I tell about me..I'm not an interesting guy..I don't have much to tell...

1. I am not very tall. Just the average 175cm tall and my skin is tanned..ahaks(just another way to say 'dark'). I don't think that I am overweight but the bmi showed that I should loose some pounds. My weight is 75kg...oh I know you don't want to know bout all these..

2. I like chocolate and cheese very much.. I like chocolate in the form of cake, drinks, ice cream or chocolate bar but I only like cheese in the form of cake..ohh my..now I know where all these fat came from..hehe..

3. I don't like to drive. I prefer being in the passanger seat but usually I was the one driving now. They knew all my tricks not to drive and they won't buy any reason now..oh oh but they still believe I can't drive manual gear car and that's the only reason I got left..haha.. I hope none of my friends read this or I'll be left with no reason after this.. I don't like to drive because I like to sleep in the car...

4. I always plan to go somewhere every school holidays but seldomly carried out because the shortage of savings. I just don't know how to breed the money. I am too generous to myself that I spend on anything I want without thinking the end result. I need help. I am a shopaholic..ehh did I spelled it right?..ahh let it be.. I'll look at it later...

5. I am also a proscrastinator...ehh!! Waa!.. I wrote bad things about me...hmm.. I should stop now.. I'll continue the other 5 later..maybe tomorrow..it's late now and I need to give these eyes some rest..don't want to look like a zombie tomorrow.. Good night!..

syoknye cuti......................................

2010-03-16T01:18:00.002+08:00

The one thing that all teachers like about the job is the long holidays......................Ohhhhhhh bestnye!!!!!!!!!!

doing free work takes the fun of a job

2010-03-14T01:47:00.003+08:00

got another photoshoot for a friend engagement ceremony. I'm always up for photo shoot but when it's only free meal, I feel half awake...oh my english is getting bad..need to brush up..need to write often to fix it. Bye bye, see you at the next post.

Ironic....

2010-03-09T23:22:00.005+08:00

just an update...

This year is not like any other year. I have to do things that I avoided in my school day. I became the Head teacher for 'scouts'. that mean I have to go for camping and build campfire and be friend with nature and all. When I was in School I never been camping. Oh oh maybe one time when I was in standard 4 and two times when I was in college. I had been reluctant all those times but I managed to do all the activities. It's not that I don't know how to make up the tents or starts a fire. I just don't like them. Jungle trekking and all those physical activities were not that hard but I just don't like to do them. I don't like to queue up just to take a bath, sleeps together in a tent or doing all those group work.

Oh oh and I don't like sleeping in a tent. Ohhh and when you have to share a tent with two or three people cramping in that small space...How could anyone sleeps..?..When I was in secondary school, I had been to 'Koku' only two times for the whole five years. Now, I organised the scouts meeting..geezes!!...
When I was in college, I was with the Saint John Ambulance..I picked that up because it don't have too many activities. I skipped classes and sleeps in my room all the times. I was good at running away. I barely been caught. Ohhhh I was an escape artist...just like Houdini....one minute I was there and then I vanished.....

I hope I'm doing the right thing for the kids...I want them to enjoy the activities even if I don't enjoy them.....Oh oh anyone knows how to march for pengakap??...I don't even know the instruction... isn't it Ironic?... The boy who ran is the boy in charged now.....

*** Penyebok tul kuning nih!!...tido le tempat len...katil aku gak dier nak menyempit!!

You don't love me......Naive......Crazy

2010-03-07T12:45:00.005+08:00

Thank you for the wished........

2010-03-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

Its 16 minutes past 12....not my birthday anymore... Do I feel older? Nop..... I feel the same.... I would like to thank everybody who had wished 'happy birthday' on the facebook and the blog....

The day.....

2010-03-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Jadi kepada diri sendiri.

what is left of me.....

2010-03-04T21:48:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I wrote the last post. I don't know why but I just don't know what to write anymore. A lot of things happened but there were just no words to describe the events.

I'm going to be 27 years old this Saturday. I feel old. Wahahaha....I intend to get married before I'm 30 but now I don't know if I would be able to fulfill that plan of mine. I have nobody right now and that makes it hard to live on the plan. I do not want to get married just because I want to get married. I want to get married because I want to marry that special woman. Ohh am I sounded grumpy and delusional ??..haha...Oh oh I better stop now.....I don't want to write craps and make a fool of myself...A loser like me have nothing but pride...if that pride is gone then I have nothing...so let me keep my sanity for a while as that's the only pride I have now......Ohh I sounded like a lunatic one more time...shhhh.. Stop! stop!..people gonna think I'm crazy...huhu

to get out of the 'shit'.

2010-02-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

Lying has always been my game. If there is one thing that I'm good at, it's lying.....Lying is not easy...its like art. You need to use your imagination and make it looks real enough so that it's easy to believe it. Lie like you believe it too. I have never get caught lying but that maybe because I never lied when I don't need to...lying has been the tool to get out of a problem or a situation where I cant get out...Oh oh but in this shit I'm in now....lying would not get me anywhere. so, for once in my life...I'll try to be honest in getting out of the shit....oh oh but I need that persuasion skill more than ever now huhuhuhuuhu...

Deep shit...

2010-02-20T15:41:00.003+08:00

I'm in deep shit now and I can't find the way out of the shit. The smell is killing me and I can't hold my breath anymore. I won't breath in this shit and I might die for not doing so.

P/s...wow my horoscope today sounded good....

The Bottom Line

Don't be tricked by false memories. The past is never as perfect as you remember.

In Detail

You've been playing around with a certain hobby for a while, and it's suddenly dawned on you that you really and truly might be able to make a full-time job of this -- or at least a part-time source of income. It's a good idea and you shouldn't dismiss it. You might, however, want to come up with a solid plan before you quit your day job, that is. Get out some legal pads and start scribbling.

too long....

2010-02-19T01:09:00.001+08:00

I missed this blog. I haven't update it in a very long time. There are comments I didn't reply yet. hmmmmmm i am so sorry bloggers friends. I'll update as soon as I sort all this entanglement that keep me out pf this blog.

journal again.....

2010-02-10T21:10:00.002+08:00

It's a boring life. I don't get exited over anything anymore. I thought this is the life I was meant to live but I was wrong. This mask I put on is too thick that I don't feel anything anymore. There are people around me that regards me as friend but I just don't know what is friendship anymore. I am and empty shell. There is no one behind this mask. It is just a thick mask. A mask that has nothing to hide. A mask that that is only a mask.

scrap journal....1

2010-02-02T20:44:00.003+08:00

Its only February and I already feel like I need a vacation.

I have not been very active in blogging lately. I did post up a thing or two but I didn't had the time to visit other blogs. I missed my blogger friends.

I been busy lately.
Busy with school's stuffs. This is the 1st year I am in SK school and everything is still fine until this point. The atmosphere in the new school is difference from the previous but I can still adapt to it.

I am a chameleon. I can shift my colours according to the surrounding.

This year, I only teach standard 1 and 2. I'm so happy about it. only 2 classes of standard 2 classes and 1 standard 1 class. I taught from year 1 to year 6 for five years straight before and now I feel heaven.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

The first day I set my feet in this school was last December...I met the headmaster and the clerk. everything was fine. On the second time I was there, I met the Senior assistant and cursed all day after that. He was arrogant and sounded like a bully. Oh oh but I didn't just left the scene just like that. I did shot him in the head with a pump gun. haha.... not literally.... He said something arrogant and I gave him his own medicine back.....that's all....

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Oh oh I still have work to do....I want to write longer but I just cant waste time.

What a great teacher....

2010-01-30T15:12:00.004+08:00

she was the one that I sang the 'my way' song too....in this picture, she was singing the same song to the students. This was a week earlier. She love that song and the music teacher decided to dedicate this song to her and I was just there at that time to be the victim hahahahaha......

She was a great teacher. Her passion for teaching inspired me. I only knew her for 3 weeks and she helped me a lot in those 3 weeks. She helped me decorated my class...This is the 1st time I become a class teacher and I just dont know all this decorating stuffs..... she did everything....hahahaha......

p/s. tgk movie smlm lalu kat crocs.....ingatkan nak tahan diri dri beli pape....sekali terbeli crocs haha.......

hehe..dah lame xmen game.

2010-01-30T02:44:00.002+08:00

bukan malas berblog tp tgh sebok panjat memanjat..dlm game ni.

preparing to make a fool of myself....

2010-01-28T21:43:00.003+08:00

Yes I am going to make a fool of myself....CeHHH!! Why did I fell for this.....A teacher in my new school is going to retire tomorrow....It's her last day tomorrow....she sang this Frank Sinatra song last Monday and a music teacher of the school ask me to sing that song tomorrow for her while he plays the keyboard.......OHHhhhhhh I'm going to make such a fool of myself tomorrow...........here, listen to this video...I tried it out in my room.....forgive me if it gives you nightmares hahaha....

rase mcm ade hingus dalam idung....nyanyi cam org kene selseme je.....padehei aku idok selseme pun...agoknye org len memg dengo sore aku mcm org kene selseme kot...................

sedap.

2010-01-19T11:28:00.002+08:00

Ini Mi segera. Memg buh telur je. nampak cam xselera.. tapi ni mak yang masak. Bile mak yang masak....mi segera pun rase sangat sedap!!....xtipu!! betol!!!...xtau le nape....masak sendiri kompem xleh sedap camnih....

P/s....tgh demam dan mengada nak makan mi segera...hehe

aku terkene....

2010-01-19T11:19:00.003+08:00

cett rugi RM2.10 aku...dah kering...

lame x tgk wayang.....

2010-01-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

I can't even remember the last movie I watched......sigh........I miss hanging out......

I bought myself a new life...

2010-01-16T13:13:00.005+08:00

This year is very new to me. everything changed and the routine that I babbled and hated so much is gone. It's a new start and I do not want to repeat the same mistake I'd done before. Today is the 16th day of this new life and I still did not figured out how I should sorted everything in the right way. I am still a procrastinator and that should be changed to. I am trying my best to make a good use of this new life I bought. The price was high. The price was my freedom....

p/s....Oh oh by the way, the pics up there are not the picture of someone being an angel or anything.......it's someone lost in the jungle and hopes that he had starbucks's ice blended and wings to fly out the jungle.......

a kiss to build a dream on

2010-01-15T02:03:00.001+08:00

lagu lame yang aku suke....dari Louis Armstrong...

Gimme a kiss to build a dream on
And my imagination
Will thrive upon that kiss
Sweetheart, I ask no more than this
A Kiss to build a dream on

Give me a kiss before you leave me
and my imagination
will feed my hungry heart
Leave me one thing before we part
A kiss to build a dream on

When I'm alone with my fancies
I'll be with you
Weaving romances
Making believe they're true

Oh, gimme your lips for just a moment
and my imagination
will make that moment live
Give me what you alone can give
A kiss to build a dream on

Gimme a kiss to build a dream on
And my imagination
Will thrive upon that kiss
Sweetheart, I ask no more than this
A Kiss to build a dream on

Give me a kiss before you leave me
and my imagination
will feed my hungry heart
Leave me one thing before we part
A kiss to build a dream on

When I'm alone with my fancies
I'll be with you
Weaving romances
Making believe they're true

Oh, gimme your lips for just a moment
and my imagination
will make that moment live
Give me what you alone can give
A kiss to build a dream on

whatcha gonna do when it's too late??

2010-01-11T01:25:00.000+08:00

tot u cn fix it n u let it b 4 a while...then its too late coz it's beyond repair. U cn run bt u cnt never hide. U wanna lie but ur tongue froze. U get the blame and u r 2 b blamed. It's ur own fault 4 bein a procrestinate. U cnt lifted the blame 2 any1 else coz u'r too timid n felt guilty. U shud feel guilty coz it is ur fault. Whatcha gonna do now? Whatcha gonna do? Hell is nearing n u'r nt prepared.. U cn scream bt then u gonna get hurt faster then..whatcha gonna do? Ohh just what u gonna do.↲↲↲

Disgusted

2010-01-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

I watched "The confession of a shopaholic for the second time now. The 1st was long ago. Ok, not that long, not when dragons and witches flew in the sky and trample fear to the village folks. EHH...why did I wrote that hahahahahaha.....maybe cause my head's feel heavy now and the pillows and the bed behind me whispering my name now....hohoho I'll be off to the slumber land after I click the 'publish post'...have this urge to write now...huhuhuhu..Ooo i'm out of the topic haha....Ok, I'll start all over again....

It's a shame to admit that I am a shopaholic. I thought this kind of sickness only infects women but I was wrong. Totally wrong. I felt the pleasure of holding something newly bought in my hands. I felt the joy of trying and testing the gadgets in stores. I felt the relieved when the salesman packed up the thing I bought....I felt great when I got those wrapped new things on my hands. The world became a happier place at those time I swapped those evil card. EVIL....yes EVIL.....and evil card indeed. It's like making a contract with the devil. It's like pawning your soul to the devil. Oh Ooo...the happiness was just temporary....Once I opened up my eyes...I realised I was actually signing up for hell. The burning I got inside the stomach thinking how I'm going to bail myself out of this hell....oh ooo I can't never get out without getting burn 1st. It's gonna leave ugly scars around my body. Scars patched with shit. Smelly and disgusting. I can cover up the scars with clothes but the smell would blow the cover. A smell reek with regrets.....

Oh oh my head is getting heavier...I'm going to jump on the bed and have a sweet moment in slumber land..goodnight!!!!

just an update....nothing to read about.....

2010-01-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

Friday,
at home in front the laptop.
got work to do but I'm feeling lazy now.
I want to update the blog but still no ideas.
Hmmmm a lot to tell but don't know how to tell them.
I stop now.
I want to watch Confession Of a Shopaholic.
I think I am the male version of a shopaholic.
I need to take control of my self.
Oh but I don't shop like the girl in that movie.
I wasted money on other things.
More to gadgets and other men stuffs....
Ohhhhh I thought of writing a very short post.
Its longer than the short version I imgined so I have to stop..
bye bye....see you again............

tido.

2010-01-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

tgh latih mate utk tido awei. Masih blum berjaye. Maaf kengkawan.awal tahun ni sebok sket. Xsmpat nk tulis pape.

Candid Photo Contest

2009-12-31T15:00:00.009+08:00

Ohhh I just wanna try....I found out this contest in Najmie's blog, "My Great Life" and follow the link to "it's all about LIFE" blog....and here I am giving a shot........

I was showing the groom on how to pose and the photographer was setting the the shutter speed. The amazing thing was that the bride was always ready for the camera...there wasn't a picture of her looking bad....

p/s...lupe nak bgtau....kalo nak join, sila klik kat gambo atas tu, gambo 4 jejaka menayang bontot tuh.....tapi ari nih last date....

year end rambling...huhu

2009-12-31T01:57:00.004+08:00

2009 is almost over....I don't remember what was my resolution last year so I cant tell you if they are fulfilled or not. All I know is the year end with me being single and have to wear a pair of spectacles. I don't have a real resolution yet for next year. I'll list them down first and at the end of 2010 I'll check them back. Oh oh and that of course only happen if I still being active in blogging next year. It's a whole different thing next year. The new school and all.....Hmmmmmmm I hope I can adapt to the surrounding of the new environment. Oh oh and in a class they will be more than 40 students....I'm not used to teach that whole lot of little children in one class. I thought year 1 to 6 in the last school but the students in a class were not that many. hmmmmmmmm need to find syllabus and all...

wedding photoshoot......

2009-12-29T12:01:00.006+08:00

All these pictures were taken by Muhammad B. Wahid
Directed by Silverleaf

Oh oh these pictures were shot by my friend. We always work together....I did the directing and he did the snapping...he's very good with his tools not like me...oh oh we haven't edited anything yet....too tired.....and busy too...(excuses)......

hoho dah siap...

2009-12-28T04:14:00.001+08:00

gambo sblm nih sebenonye spec men men je....yg nih baru siap....hmmmmm ok le kot.....kalo xok, pakei time drive udoh le...hehe

diagnosed....now,....spectacles...

2009-12-26T03:18:00.004+08:00

I felt like all the cars on the road were using their high beam....I even put on the sunscreen at night. I checked my eyes at an optical shop in Ipoh and hmmmmm "rabun Silau" ropenye.....ish ish ish......xsukenye pakei spec..............rase cam org tua......

oh oh xleh nak bejage mlm nih.....sok ade wedding photoshoot.....nite nite.....

oh oh ahad nih mgkin gi cameron!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION....Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-25T04:06:00.003+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION
I am truly sorry for any inconvenient. I am trying to change the layout.....now i know it's really hard doing it.....It took me hours to figure just to put the header correctly....I am truly sorry.....

Update
AIIIImoKKKK xlalu doh nak buat!!!!!!!!!!

bitten...

2009-12-24T20:34:00.002+08:00

I was bitten by a poisonous dragonfly....now my name is Scar........

**Oh oh this pic scared me....was playing with adobe....

just a rambling of negative thought......

2009-12-24T17:06:00.007+08:00

I'm enjoying coke right now in front of the lappy. just came back from the new school. Yup, I'm going to be teaching in different school next year. Bigger school, larger crowd, more students, more work and different politic game. I'm not talking about the politic in the country, I'm talking about politic in the workplace....oh oh i'm tired of workplace politic...

Nevertheless, nobody can run off from such thing. They will be ass suckers, bossy seniors, babbling clerk, meddling parents, and there will be strict head master whose butt will be shining from the suckers.....oh oh they will be strict attire code too...hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..tired..

oh oh i should be positive but I been there two times and that the first thing caught on my mind....That what I saw for those two times I was there....Shit....!!!

I should be neutral....I'll try to be neutral...won't get caught in those dirty games of them....Oh oh...i donno...Hmmmmmm will see, will see.....it's still too soon to interpret anything........positive...positive...positive...Heyy!!! where is the positive vibe????????....come here "Positive"......cheer me up!!! hahahahahaa
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Hoiii kuning!!! pegi men kat mane nih??....kotor...cehhh jgn harap nak tido ateh katil aku ari nih....hmmmm sok le mandikan......malehnye dah petang2 nih......

saje nak mengarut...

2009-12-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

I can control the king, the queen, the rook, the knight and the bishop to engage a war....but, It's not something worth it....I let you win. You are so keen on winning, so take it.....enjoy it!!

Congratulation my friend.....

2009-12-21T15:56:00.007+08:00

semua tempat nak benti tgkp gambo...ape kename background nye huhuhu

Ohh aku maleh nak edit2 lagi...penatttt woooo....nti rr...boh je la sini dulu....oh oh aku tgkp dri jauh je nih...ade photographer dah...jadi aku maleh nak menyebok..huhu

blog log..sleepless

2009-12-19T05:31:00.002+08:00

I donno what time it is. I cnt sleep. Just like yesterday. I log out of blogspot to sleep bt my eyes dnt feel like it.

I used to have this kind of prob back in my college days. It's happening again. I hope I wont be sleepy while driving. I'm gonna look like hell at the weddg...oh.

*blogging via phone.

Blog Log: Sebarang Jaya...

2009-12-19T02:06:00.003+08:00

I'm in a friend house in Seberang Jaya. He asked me here to see his akad nikah and wedding ceremony here. I was reluctant to come at 1st but seems that nobody else can make it, I felt sorry for him and now here I am on the floor typing this log. I'm using my phone as a modem for this internet connection. Maxis has this RM8 for a day internet service. The speed is okay here, can even upload pictures to facebook. I'm satisfied with the speed. hoho it's funny writing a log. I did it because I watched Avatar yesterday and he did video log everyday...aku mudah terpengaruh....but no way m gonna do a video log...malu la wehh haha...and I sounded retarded in recorded devices haaahahahha...hmmm I brought my camera...he asked me to shoot a lil bit in the akad nikah and kenduri...m so lazy for free thingy hahahahahahahaha....hmmmmm I havent practice using the camera for quite sometime now...Donno if m gonna have the 'feel'...I need to 'feel' to get nice enough pictures....hmmmm what the heck...its free hahahahaahah.....I'm babling like a morone here because I'm bored...sorry readers...I know I have wasted your time...

Oh oh I miss dragonfly but I wont msg her. She never msg me either....yeahh of course she wont...I know it from the start....

Hmmm I donno what else to write...what should I write about???....I still cant sleep...my body is tired but my eyelids wont glue themselves to sleep.....oh oh hmmmmm....stop....maybe I should stop now before I make a total idiot of myself....not that I can look worse than now...huhu

blog log.

2009-12-18T04:42:00.004+08:00

*Hoho sonok dapat poster ngan gelas plastic Avatar...

*Haha ape yang kamu buat ni matt!!!....

*Hoho poster dah lekat dlm bilik skg nih...

*meganggu orang beratur beli pop corn....xsedap rrr pop corn TGV...Pop corn GSC lagi sedap...Weh pasei pe aku mcm ade 3 kaki??...hoho....

It's 4.49am....Just came back from Ipoh. Was with Along,mamat,Arn and Syihan...A nice movie it was....clean type where you can bring your kid brother with...oh oh I'm tired now.....got to log out........bye bye......

kuning penyebok....

2009-12-14T01:24:00.001+08:00

ini kuning. dia penyebok...huhu....

sick of being sick...

2009-12-13T04:24:00.003+08:00

It has to end some where and it must end quickly....and now I'm forcing it to end......goodbye sorrow, goodbye lonely, goodbye sadness, goodbye looser.....haaaaa...bye bye...a new day begin....

Sun....

2009-12-13T01:17:00.005+08:00

I thought she was the one. I really did. I believed it and it became hope. I stayed loyal far too long. I was wrong. I should have known better. I don't blame her, not for my own foolishness. She was not at fault at all. It was I who was not bright enough to understand.

The time I reallised it, I was crushed like glass to stone. Shattered into pieces.

I should not cling to this cloud, It's too cold here. It is dark and gloomy. It rains all the time but there is no sunshine to make a rainbow. No rainbow....no rainbow here..hmmm what the use of a rainbow...its only the arch of colours....it could make me happy but for a while...only for a while....I should be looking for the sun..Ohhhh yes the sun...then I wont feel this cold anymore....Sun....where are you???....I saw stars before...they glitters at me....maybe one of the stars is the sun that I need...fool....what a fool for me to ignore them before.....There is not only one son...the stars I saw could be the sun that could heat my land........but there are too far now for me to know if there are the sun I need. Stars......stars...twinkling in the sky....there are many stars...I should not worried.....Just need to find the one that could be my sun.....

p/s...m writing nonsense here...sowy...huhuhuhhu...oh oh but if u truly understand it then u know I really meant what I wrote....huhuu

root of all evil...

2009-12-12T21:00:00.006+08:00

Once a friend asked me.."don't you wanna be rich?"...he was persuading me to join his business...and I said.."not this way, I dont mind being as I am now....I am a moderate man....I dont need big cars,big house, and all those big things...I am grateful of what I have now..."....Then he never persuaded me again....and I am thankful of what I am now and I don't envy when people flash big cars in front of me....once I did something for free...I thought of helping the children..I done it for years for free..then I found out that all the years that I did those work I was getting paid...and the money never reached me...I am fine of doing it voluntarily but when some one swindle my right then I stopped.....and now my own friends are actually doing the same thing to me.....they got money by my slavery.....hmmmm what kind of friends are they??....even when some one gave me present to thank me for my help I didn't get it...it was passed to some one else.......hmmmm It's true I don't really mind about money..but being cheat and used??...I hate it....

people said that's money is the root of all evil but I dont believe it but it seems that it does have a relation...hmmmmmm

***apekebende tah aku tulih nih.....

Here is the money that I owe you
So you can pay the bills
I will give you more
When I get paid again
I hate those people who love to tell you
Money is the root of all that kills
They have never been poor
They have never had the joy of a welfare christmas
I know we will never look back
You say you wake up crying
Yes and you don't know why
You get up and you go lay down
Inside my baby's room
I guess I'm doing ok
I moved in with the strangest guy
Can you believe he actually thinks
That I'm really alive
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shinny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
Yes I will
Yes, I know all about that other guy
The handsome man with athletic thighs
I know about all the times before
With that obsessive little rich boy
They might think you think you're happy
Yeah maybe for a minute or two
They can't make you laugh
No they can't make you feel the way that I do
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shinny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
I will buy you a new life
Yes I will
I know we can never look back
Will you please let me stay the night
No one will ever know
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shinny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shinny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
I will buy you a new life
I will buy you a new life

2009-12-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

got to take control. hmmm maybe tomorrow...today m too lazy huhuhuhuu....

flight of the butterflies....

2009-12-09T01:36:00.003+08:00

Nothing left...
all the colours flew out...
flapping their colourful wings and left me with the darkness...
all I have is the grey heart....
no life inside..
just echo of cries...

hollow....

Lost

2009-12-08T19:32:00.001+08:00

I'm lost and I'm cold....I need some one to guide me out of this maze...

Just not good enough...

2009-12-08T18:54:00.003+08:00

I have been bitter for quite sometime now but now I realise that what was supposed to be has been.....and now I accepted the fact that she had just made the best choice of her life. she chose not to pretend anymore and laid the truth to me. I just have to accept it. I must not been good enough for her and I have to accept that.

I been shooting the love arrows on the blank wall that she put to cover her heart made of hard steel. All the arrows broke just like my heart did....

I have to wake up some day...and I have just did.

love hurts.....

2009-11-27T00:32:00.002+08:00

I'm still in HK. I wont write a long post just yet...Just wanna post something here. Ohh I should have fun here but everything turned sour when I finally realise that my love life was all fake. I realise that she's not in love with me like I love her. I feel insane right now...dont worry, I'll keep my cool a bit longer.......I'm hurt...its like my heart jump out of the rib and got rolled by a truck. I felt like doing something stupid but my love to my family stopped all the crazy ideas......If there is a pil that can erase my memory and my love for her, I'll get it.......

aiiii entah le....

2009-11-16T20:10:00.005+08:00

I cant say that I'm in favour of all the government campaigns but this one I'm totally in with. The colour of skins, religion and all should not be the problems in living together as a community but we have been taught indirectly by our parents that way. Not on purpose but its like a thing in the mind that set the our way of lives.....The SJK(C) and SJK(T) schools just dont help us get along too....Why not just one school for all....hmmmmm waitta minute...I wrote bout this before...oh oh...hmmm I should not write it again...oh well you know what I mean and you can interpret what I mean...I think...oh ok I don't wanna think...I wanna watch anime...bye hahahahahah...
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P/S:..I was so eager to write then I lost interest...hehe

sp

2009-11-08T23:50:00.006+08:00

The map I posted yesterday was about today journey......I googled the way to Sungai Petani and here I am....In a room with a cheese burger, my favourite lipton green tea, pudding and the laptop.....

bla bla....

2009-11-08T02:58:00.002+08:00

I done things that I'm not proud off...far too many mistakes that i didn't learned from....need to find the right path.....ohh by the way the map above got nothing to do with the post...hmm maybe a little...

a bee pretending to be as free as a dragonfly....

2009-10-27T23:17:00.006+08:00

i'm pretty busy this week...I shouldn't have time to update....oh oh i pick up again my old hobby...hmmm I have a lot of hobbies....fishing,swimming,photography,drawing,....but its kinda according to the moods.....now I'm back into fishing......I bought a new reel and rod...I shouldn't have as I already have 3 of them but all of them were given by my elder brother...I wanted my own stuff.....Its cheaper and not as nice but its my own and I love it.......its fun but kinda not suitable now as I don't have the time....yesterday I fished for an hour...just melepas gian....oh oh and I caught a pretty big fish...just a fish...just one...I wished I had more time.....the water was just right yesterday...

2009-10-25T02:27:00.007+08:00

Its almost 3 in the morning and I can't sleep. so...I'm dumping craps here and its gonna smell awfully bad....maybe u shudnt be here now....its gonna stink....u shoud avoid urself from reading this crap of a post...its gonna waste ur time....really..m not lying......it wont be organised and i just write it as my mind dwindle.......bye....see ya!!....

I came back from Pangkor last Thursday and my spirit was positive seeing the main land. My bro in-law pick me up at the jetty. I was writing the previous post when he came...he picked me up and we went to tadika perpaduan. We went there to see two of his children performed that day. a nephew and a niece of mine.

I can see that the main target of the tadika is not about teaching reading or writing but to build confident in the kids....I think that particular tadika has succeeded in that area...my niece and nephew can already read but that's not what I'm happy about, I'm happy about their level of confident when facing people...how they react to situation and how they are not shy to ask anything...they know how to fulfill their inquiries and know how to socialise ....and I can see how my bro in-law and sister really care for their children education and always back up the teachers...they know their children's teachers and always interact with them...I could see that they and the teachers are like in one team to shape the kids future....I was glad about that.....I can see that in education all her children are doing well..even the one in primary school....my sister was a bright student when she was young but our family was living in poverty before and she didnt have the chance to further her study when she was younger...now that she has 4 kids, she is pursuing her diploma...and hopefully she can reach her target to get a degree one day....my nephews and nieces are all closed to me.I love them like my own children......

I went home that night after dinner with them. I dissapointed my neice as she asked me to take her to karaoke....It was late and I need to get to school the next day.

On friday I was dead beat. My father suddenly voiced the urged to go to Bangi to visit another sister of mine. I said to him that I didn't have the strength to drive for 4 hours yet..I asked him to wait until tomorrow....I went out to town to hang out with friends....Then my mother called and said they're on the way to the toll already in the kancil...aiyaaaa....my father just can't wait for the next day....I told them to turn back....i can let them went there by themselves...in a kancil...they gonna be tired....my father is not in his well health...he's 72 this year....so...what else....here I am in Bandar Baru Bangi....writing this post in my nephew's room....I'm still tired but my eyes are so stubborn to sleep.......

my sister here has different story than the sister in manjung....she and her husband don't see eyes to eyes with the teachers in her children school...Ohhh and she told me this thing and that thing and all the faults of the teachers...i didn't voiced anything out....she said all those thing in front of her children...i don't think that it was wise to talk badly about your children teachers in front of the children...the children gonna loose respect to their teachers and i don't think the outcome gonna be good....I didn't say anything because she is twice my age and I don't think I can put any any sense to her....well she has money and people with money always look down on teachers......
hey...sorry.....m not gonna finish writing this post...i feel sleepy and that is good......I wanna sleep....gudnite....Ohhh and i didn't even put a title for this post...

Pangkor journal day 3....

2009-10-22T14:38:00.002+08:00

the 1st time ever I found this kind of warning in a hotel.....ormaybe I never reallise this kind of warning in the other hotels....

goodbye Pangkor Island........

On the ferry....

I'm here now writing this entry.....have to wait for my bro to pick me up....looks like I'm gonna be here for a long time....

this coconut drink sucks big time!!!!!!

pangkor journal day 2 again

2009-10-22T14:20:00.003+08:00

huishhhh sebenonye maleh nak upload gambo dah sebab dah ilang idea nak tulih ape.....

I was on a course that was not meant for me..it was for a non-tesl teacher who teaches english at school.....its still the deepavali week and the other beg me to attend this course for her...a goody two shoes like me cant never ignore when somebody asks for help....

anyway, as I know the JPN man who was in charged for this course I was not entitle to sit in all the classes they organised.... when the other teachers were listening to the babbling of the facilitators, i was already at the beach......hehehehehe....it was only like a holiday to me....

Pangkor journal day 2

2009-10-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

the net is too slow...I cant put in any picture.....hmmmm...spoiled my mood to update.....see ya tomorrow....

Pangkor journal day 1

2009-10-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

I arrived at 5.00pm in manjung syariah court...No, I was not in any trial, i was waiting for my brother in-law there to send me to the jetty.. I arrived at the jetty at 5.15. my bro wanna hang out 1st but I told him that i was rushing. He went home and the jetty horned me goodbye...I missed the ferry. Two of my friends here came and we hang out at the Restaurang Jetty...I missed another ferry trip as I went to the toilet....damnn the time is 5.50pm and the registration closed at 6.30....but I was not worried...I been late to many courses and meeting before...hmmmm actually, not many but all the courses and meeting....i been to many meeting and courses that I almost know everybody in my district...so it wont be any prob..I'm infamous...haha....

I'm typing this post using my roommate broadband...its too slow...my roommate is an indian teacher...the indian teachers in kuala kangsar are all nice to me...I been in the circle for five years...so I'm like a Malay Otai in tamil's schools comunity hohohohoho...I am bragging like a fool here because I am bored....ohhh by the way, i am teaching in tamil's school and that is why tamil's schools teachers know me...heheh..its nice teaching in the estate...the parents never come to me to complaint anything....I got that snob kind of look that they didn't dare to offend me.....ohhh i developed this kind of expression after college....I have to put this mask for my own sake...u donno how parents can be....they attacked some of the teachers from the schools before....but they didn't even dare to mention my name.....hmmmm I am babling like a baboon...uk uk uk uk....i usually write without thinking first and the outcome is always stupid haahaha....ok, before I made a complete fool f myself I better stop....

good night....

off to pangkor

2009-10-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting in a mamak stall in lumut. Waiting for the ferry to pangkor island.

trip ke zoo taiping......

2009-10-19T12:52:00.005+08:00

its been a while since I set my feet at the zoo....pity the animals..they are not in good shape.....the chimpanzees look bery old and tired....the ostriches looses their feathers....the animals have been stripped out of their freedom...at least treat them well...

AAaaUUMMMmmm!!!!!

2009-10-18T02:13:00.003+08:00

tadi pegi zoo...huhuhu lame xpg Zoo...rase cam jakun lak....hmmm dah lame xpegang cam rase kekok sangat......tp ok le...pueh ati gak rrr tadi....semua binatang aku tangkap....kang kene bangun pagi nak pegi lokken....tido rrr...nite2....

sengal

2009-10-12T10:13:00.002+08:00

hmmmm makin lame makin sengal.....

journal bosan

2009-10-10T11:22:00.002+08:00

semalam dalam terowong kat ipoh ke K.L....bosan.....

hari ni, skg kat shah alam.....hmmmm ape tah nak buat ari ni...

flesh

2009-10-09T20:26:00.003+08:00

eat me and throw me away....

sebenonye xde maksud pape pun...dah lame xpegang kamera...rase bersalah kat kamera....gambo2 dlm blog asyik tangkap gune phone je....dah lame xpegang nak tgkap gambo 1 ni pun jenuh sampei 7 shots baru dapat ape yang nak....hmmmm nak pi KL nih....maleh sebenonye tapi kesian lak ade kawan ajok....

Syaitan terlepas

2009-10-08T01:24:00.009+08:00

orang kate membazir amalan syaitan...jadi malam ni aku serupa syaitan....ishhhhhhhhhhhh camane le le aku leh membazir...................

I came back from school at 4.30.....I tried to stay awake eventho I was so tired...(I am still with a fever and terrible flu)..I hope its not the H1N1....never heard of it anywhere near me so the possibility is not high...anyway, at 5.30pm I just cant keep my eyes from glued together...people say that its not good to sleep after Asar.....I woke up at 7pm...I donno what happened but as soon as I woke up I wanted the new nokia express music....It was like the devil carved it in my head...I took a shower and did my prayer...my heart still wanted the phone....I determined not to follow the devil's whisper.....Its 8pm and I was in front of the PC wanted to update the blog...I wanted to write about why people say not to sleep after Asar and I experienced something weird when I woke up...I surfed the web to look for the phone picture.....I read the function and specs....ohh its amazing....

At 8.10pm I started the engine of my car and drove to Greentown Mall....I bought it and now I feel I am wasting a sum of money that I saved to go on a holiday this end of the year....The devil won.....he must be laughing on my silliness now...

stupid me....I wont sleep after Asar anymore....donno what will the devil carve in my head next time.....

padehey elok je lagi nset lame nih....camane laaaa aku leh terpedaya......watpe tah sampei dua nset.....

harap kamu nih berbaloi nset woi....

oh mine...baru pasan....cam saje nak nunjuk lak tulih kat sini...weh bace ngan nada penyesalan....mungkin sebab dah 2 hari aku demam dan tido je lepas sampei rumah yang membuatkan aku jadi ting tong.....weh ape aku tulih nih...ishhhhh bek berenti sekarang dari melalut lebih lagi....