Wednesday, April 7, 2010

疲れた

私はもう自分の仕事を好きではない。私は子供を教えるですが、私はすべての事務作業を行うには好きではない。彼らは非常に多くのレポートと割り当てていま す。私は教育省は、実際に学校の条件を知らないと思う。彼らが知っていれば、彼らはヘルパーのすべての論文では、仕事を洞で私たちが送信されます 私は日本の文章で書くなぜ私に依頼しないでください。私は試してみたい。

一家の厄介者

私は兄弟がいる。彼は麻薬中毒です。彼は私のお金を盗んだとの距離クアラルンプールを実行します。彼は彼と私のバイクを取った。私は彼と一緒に行うにはわ からない。彼は他の悪いことを盗んで警察に逮捕されていた。私は恐れて、彼は別の罪を自分のバイクを使って行うとしている午前 彼は私に恥をもたらすでしょう。私はこの文章を読んで私の友達をしたくないので、私は日本語の文章で書いています。夜今のところ良好です。私は常に私は、 悲しみと怒り不安を感じて書いてください。

Monday, April 5, 2010

negative and positive...

Some one told me before that those lights you switch on to bright the dark night need positive and negative cell to work. Hmmm something like that...I don't really remember the exact words but almost like that...

I created this blog last year and hidden it from the world...I dump all my anger, frustration, disappointment, sadness and all the negative thoughts in the blog. It was the way I channeled all the negative aura out of the system. Then, I opened the blog to public. I changed the layout and deleted all the things that might offended anybody. I imported things from my older blog here and try to be more open. I got some followers and even cared for what they would think after reading any of the entries I posted in the blog. I toned down my voice and wrote things that were not important to me or anybody. There was like a boundary that stopped me from writing what I really wanted to write......I lost the plank to sunk the nails....the hammer and nails were kept in the closet and the negative aura became like a boil waiting to explode....

These past few months were not so good. I wanted to express them here but the boundary shifted into a thick wall....very hard to get through....some of the arrows did made it into the posts but those were just a tiny speck of what I really wanted to write.....Writing in the blog was a pleasure...now it became nothing....I don't know why I write in the blog anymore. It lost it's purpose.....

If you had been my blog lately, you can see how negative I had been about everything....there were actually two sides of every story but I chose to write the negative side here and live the positive side....and I enjoyed the positive ones so much that I don't care to write them in the blog...but when I was depressed, I need the blog to expressed it..

I am sorry if the negative vibe gets to you.... I hope it didn't...


Friday, April 2, 2010

sinking.

the last five years, I been a slave to work. There were too many things to do and the time seem so short but I managed to settled everything and I was amazed myself. This year I got less work but i don't know what is wrong that I feel that time is still short. the work now is not as much as what I got last year but time is still so short in a day. My time management is terrible. I felt like I'm inside a quick sand and it would drowned me any time now.....I'm going to sleep now and wake up in a better tomorrow...
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